Blessed be thy journey16:48 Mar 04 2025
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What I have today, is hard fought.
I stood alone for quite some time, with no one and nothing to keep me company.
I went through losing our daughter alone. I went to the court alone, I went through losing the last tiny bit of family I had left, alone. Went through the loss of my home alone.
I went through losing my dog alone.
I was left with nothing, absolutely nothing, my sanity took its toll.
Still haven't bounced back, perhaps I never will.
Then I found a friend, nothing more. A friend.
She helped me stand on my feet, she helped me pull up my gaze.
As a friend, she did more for me than my so called family ever did.
I found support.
Nothing was expected, not from me, nor her.
Nothing was supposed to come from it. Not from my point of view, not hers. This was never planned, nor handed.
Yet, something stirred within.
What was this unknown feeling?
How could I have lived for so long without never feeling it's warmth and security.
That no matter what was going to happen, those support beams would hold strong.
No matter who I was tomorrow, the only expectation of me, was to help fill our mutual cup.
Not I her cup, or her mine.
But our, mutual, cup.
This was new to me, so of course I got scared and careful.
Still, nothing had to come of this, the most important thing, to me. Was taking it slow, seeing as how rushing things have gotten me in a bind before.
I didn't wanna live in constant anxiety from earlier relationships. An anxiety I myself have been an accomplice to.
I still love you, I always will. As the mother of our daughter, that will never cease to be.
I will always wish you well, and strangely enough, so does she.
I considered making a new profile, with a name unbeknownst to you, so that I could use this space without inflicting hurt on you.
I quickly came to the realisation tho, that you would know rather quickly anyway.
Blessed be thy journey, so mote it be
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ElaSaeurDesAnges
17:16 Mar 04 2025
Why would it hurt me? I am truly happy for you.
I have been hurt by everything else, you have done
Eith good reason.
And i was alone too. Alone with thise things
If anything i know what its like.
And since a part of me loves you
I am happy that you have found support And love
Despite any anger And regret i have with you
I am sure you feel the same way.
If anything i feel free, a release.
I knew this all the time tho.
Being conneted to someone strange like me
Have me knowing things. But I wish you both Prosper
Happiness And long strong lasting love..
I can only hope to meet someone like that one dat
So congratulqtions to you.
Take care of her, be good to her.
Blessings to you.
Mau you have a happy life. ♡