Tonight i was sitting with my mother and she started topic about my father ...soon will come Xmas and 1 full year without my dad... she again feel sorry for her self 😑 she was like oh Dani i would like to be like you.You are strong , ambitious and nothing can't break you.You are same like your father was when he was alive. But i can't handle my pain blah blah blah.... 😑
Me?Strong? Haha that's funny 😠 I wonder did she ever asked me how i feel?Nope she is always busy feeling sorry for herself or busy with her precious girl friends. Actually I'm not strong at all.But i have no time to sitting home and feeling sorry for myself. In one year i lost my father and my cheating finance and little before that happen i was talking with my friend Borko that i would die if something happen to my dad or my ex cheating bf But guess what! I'm fucking alive! I didn't die!Everything happened so fast.So i didn't have other choice. I had to take care of dads company and his office. I had to be there for everyone because they all was "broken " so ....yea I'm heartless.
And did anyone who really "care" about me wonder why i am at work as much is that possible ...why i working until i feel like I'm about to pass away? NOPE!They didn't! They think that's all about money but they never think that I'm working this much just to be busy and stop thinking about fucking ME!BECAUSE FUCKING H-U-R-T!
So yea I'm weak like fucking fuck!
But i must live you know. I don't have other choice. You just can't run from yourself. I loved my dad more then anyone. He was perfect father.He was my everything ... He was my straight ....but I'm his blood he still is in my veins.And i need to be strong because of him.
....but i HATE when my mother playing victim and act like she is wounded but she good know that i know her well ....
Ah fuck it 😑
COMMENTS
I'm really sorry Dani, I know how you feel because I went through the same thing with my grandfather. I'm here for you if you ever want to talk.
Thank you hun ~hugs~
"Hugs you tight"
COMMENTS
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Liliancat
12:06 Nov 06 2016
Can I have a pair of 2 please lol
QueenZombiee
12:46 Nov 06 2016
Absolutely Sweetheart 😘
ZombieLegendre
13:44 Nov 06 2016
I love the herringbone pattern of the wood floor.
QueenZombiee
14:16 Nov 06 2016
You are such Zombie dammit! ~giggless~ and what about new babiez? 👢