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20:01 Mar 18 2008
Times Read: 586

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19:12 Mar 18 2008
Times Read: 589

I give up, i can't seem to get any thing right no matter how i try, i can't seem to have feelings with out being made to feel bad for it, i know i don't always pick the best ways to get my feelings and thoughts across but i can only do what i can do, if i say nothing i get shit on for it, i say whats on my mind i get shit on for it, all i want is to be happy, loved, wanted, needed, i'm tired of being used and lied too, i know i'm not perfect never claimed to be and i know i'm probably to needy, and nag to much and maybe i expect to much from people maybe thats the problem, cause in the end i'm the one used, lied too, cheated on, abused, the one left feeling like i messed up again, it's no surprise my ex husband left the way he did and that he hates my guts, i know i'm a pain in the ass most of the time, i know i don't look the way you would really like me to look i know my non existent self esteem gets on your nerves, listening to me bitch about other girls and what not, never mind i'm just rambiling now fuck it......

WHY
02:08 Mar 14 2008
Times Read: 602

I can't take it any more, i just don't know what to do, it just seems to be getting worse day by day, night by night, it's all i can think about why wasn't i good enough to wait for, why wasn't i enough to keep you happy enough not to stray, i just wanted you to love me, is that so much to ask, don't i deserve to be loved, treated with a small measure of respect, to be good enough not to be lied too. I love you more then i you could imagine, more then i ever thought i could love some one, please just tell me WHY........

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00:23 Mar 14 2008
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00:21 Mar 14 2008
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Please Read
01:07 Mar 10 2008
Times Read: 606




Body: Subject: daddy it hurts

Body: This iS A TRUE STORY AND iF YOU DONT PASS THiS ON YOU DONT HAVE A SOUL

My name is Chris









I am three,









My eyes are swollen







I

cannot see,







I must be stupid







I must be bad,







What else could have made







My daddy so mad?







I wish I were better







I wish I weren't ugly,







Then maybe my mommy







Would still want to hug me.







I cant do a wrong







I cant speak at all









Or else im locked up







All day long.







When im awake im all alone







The house is dark







My folks aren't home







When my mommy does come home







I'll try and be nice,







So maybe ill just get







One whipping tonight.







I just heard a car







My daddy is back







From Charlies bar







I hear him curse







My name is called







I press myself







Against the wall







I try to hide







From his evil eyes







Im so afraid now







I'm starting to cry







He finds me weeping







Calls me ugly words,







He says its my fault







He suffers at work







He slaps and hits me







And yells at me more,







I finally get free







And run to the door







Hes already locked it







And I start to bawl,







He takes me and throws me







Against the hard wall







I fall to the floor







With my bones nearly broken,







And my daddy continues







With more bad words spoken,







"Im sorry!", I scream







But its now much to late







His face has been twisted







Into a unimaginable shape







The hurt and the pain







Again and again







O please God, have mercy!







O please let it end!







And he finally stops







And heads for the door







While I lay there motionless







Sprawled on the floor







My name is Chris

I am three

Tonight my daddy

Murdered me

And you can help

Sickens me to the soul

And if you read this

and don't pass it on

I pray for your forgivness

/>Because you would have to One heartless person







To not be affected







By this Poem







And because U R affected,







Do something about it!







So all i ask you to do







Is pass this on!







IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE!



Please if your a parent or just care about kids please copy this and pass it on thanks.

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22:13 Mar 05 2008
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22:11 Mar 05 2008
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19:21 Mar 04 2008
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19:20 Mar 04 2008
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19:19 Mar 04 2008
Times Read: 617


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19:19 Mar 04 2008
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19:17 Mar 04 2008
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19:16 Mar 04 2008
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19:15 Mar 04 2008
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19:14 Mar 04 2008
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19:14 Mar 04 2008
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