Long Lost Brother09:20 Feb 26 2006
Times Read: 734
Holy fuckin’ schnikes, Batman!!!! I was checkin’ my messages yesterday before I headed off to OKC to get my windows tinted, and what do I find? A friend invitation to a fellow, “Jerimiah”. Okay, at first I’m thinking, great…another perv…but I check out his yahoo360 profile anyway for shits & giggles………Turns out, this is my full-blooded brother…..
Backstory time : It’s been appox. 8 years since I’ve talked to my brother, and it was through e-mail. Then one day…no response…no messages before now from him.
My first reaction was saying ‘Oh my Gods!!’ about 20 or so times, then, calmed, okay, this might be a good thing. Heh, talk about a shock to start the weekend. So of course I told my mom and then my aunt later on…they completely flipped. They started to ask me all kinds of questions and finally I told them, “ Hey, I haven’t even actually talked to him yet, so let’s put first things first.” Geez, talk about a headache. I’m hoping this will work out, maybe I’ll even be able to go visit. As always, updates will be given…
Tell me I'm not the only one living under a rock....02:28 Feb 24 2006
Times Read: 737
Okay, so usually my lyrical composits go into the specified section...but I'm an odd ball so here goes :
Kiss Me Lyrics
Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.
[Chorus:]
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing em upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
[Chorus (repeat)]
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So is it jus me, or does this song give the implications for not being.....heterosexual?!?
HA.......wonder what else they have....
I Do Cry
22:18 Feb 20 2006
Times Read: 745
I realize my opposition may make one think I hardly ever show my feelings. Given, I’m alone and cut off from the world at the moment, but it’s still an outward display nonetheless. To catch those unaware up to speed, Pandora and I have come to the decision of ‘parting ways as lovers’…
I can’t nor will I say either of us is happy about it, but it’s done and I’m hoping we will be able to get through this and remain as friends with all the most inner depths of my soul. So it’s been two weeks since my last confession…oops, I meant since this interaction took place, hence the reason I haven’t been online for long or doing much of anything for that matter. I’m calling it my “grace period” for lack of a better term.
For damn near two years, this woman was my life, and now I’m not sure of anything. I know what I’m supposed to be doing, but I’m literally lost and it feels like everything…my plans for the near future, plans for later down the road, and any endeavor I have conceived are destroyed, severely disengaged, well~thrown into that “great abyss”. All I can say is now what? Now for the reasoning in the title of this little entry : I was listening to my music and FINALLY broke down, cried, and here I sit, writing this to release jus a bit more of myself into the world.
I’m not made of steel, concrete or stone. If I’m distraught, I do cry; if I’m struck, I do bruise and bleed. Please understand this and accept it; I have, or at least I’m workin’ on it. That’s all I have for now….
P.S.~~ Feel no remorse for me or the state of confusion I’m in, I’m writing this to simply get it out of my system…
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