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i feel it comeing washing over me like a fog rolling in off the sea. its this momentary laspe of reason inside the darkness thats overtaking my mind that provokes my inner demons to seek the outer world of the loght. only in this moment of darkrelease do i find my true identity , my only real emotional peac. but in thid black dierg of emotion im still never wholy complete. for inside this black fortrass of natural dementia there resides yet a sliver of the light that is responsible for the inner turmoil that ive battled during my remembered existence. if only that sliver of light would vannish or burn out .only if i could evermore be encased in this blissfull black void of light away from the sickening thoughts and feelings of the humanity stilll cursing my soul . ohh yes then it would be a day to remember, a day of total reconing for all those ever to oppose me. without remorse or concience in this darkness i could let go the anger let go the rage. unleash all the excess energy ive keept building inside for ever so long. yes total abandonment of all things seen in the light, only would i then be truely free. never agin feeling sad or anxious or depressed or confused, then only then would all my days be full of white hot anger ,burning devastateingly brutel flash of violence sent forth unto the people as a whole no innocene left alone unmolested, no eyes not struck blind. oh god why did you have to send down this infernal light to nbe forever here ever halting my awakeing of debotchery. why throttle my desires why destroy ny onle redemption .why stop this creature youve made from becoming alive .fully liveig throughout the ages wreaking havoc in the lives and deaths of all i meet and alll i seek to destroy. i only hope and pray to whatever damnable gods listen with half interest that one day this darkness will blight out that sliver o infernal light , cleanse this darkharbor of its only visible ailment. to find once that this darkness is here to stay become anchored in time and space to this world of light without being soiled by its deadly touch leaveing me free to be . free to roam through humanitys streets unknown and unhinged . unwanted but necessary, needed to reveal this common pityable excuse for a species only real purpose , to be used and discarded as needed by the ever consuming fires of the flesh. giveing unto them the knowledge of death and all its horrid glory. maby now maby this day will be proven true maby ill find my solace in the blood of the weak on this day.only if i were to become so lucky only to be so emboldended. i sit and embrace the dark fog of insanity waiting watching hopeing to be free .i shall see and i shall wait for one day it must be so. it must come to pass. nothing else is possible to remain proven stronger then the darkness. nothing can resist forever not even this dispicable sliver of light . son i pray come unto me come and stay never forsake me ande my wanton desires agin.