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Why can't you see what you are putting us through,

Your lies are now coming to surface,

Since i was young I wanted to be just like you,

Strong, wise, street-smart,

But now I see that becoming you is a fate worst than death,

You hid in the shadows to hide from me a part of your life,

You show a smile and pretend that its ok,

but it's not,

Why don't you just be with your little whore,

Save us the lies and save us the tears,

If I become like you it'll be my worst fear,

Why can't can't you tell us the truth instead of lies,

Or you going to just make me cry?

As I stood there,

I looked into the eyes of death,

the eyes were a dark shade of green,

Staring at me in wonder and curiosity,

Oh, how I love those eyes,

His skin was white as snow,

Smooth when I touched it,

Like a question waiting to be answer,

His body,

Strong and muscular,

I've been wanting him to hold me in his arms,

His hair, brown, flowing in the wind,

Wanting to play with it since I saw it,

And his lips,

Rosy color,

Feeling like they could kiss me forever,

But yet,

If I touch them,

I would die,

Knowing how much it would hurt me to feel the way I do.







Traci Ann Estep

Sometimes I feel like I lose myself,



I feel like I am somewhere else,



I don't know if I'm near or afar,



I don't know where the hell I are,



Sometimes when you call,



I can not hear you at all,



Lost in my little dream worlds away,



Don't know if I can come out and play,



Medication inside of me making me feel bad,



Sometimes happy sometimes sad,



ADHD thats what I have,



Making me wish I never had,



Mental illness I proclaim,



Started in a early childhood what a shame,



I don't know whats the cost,



All I know that I feel lost.





Traci Ann Estep