Cool. I have the guts to say what I want.
01:48 Dec 21 2009
Times Read: 544
It's almost Christmas.
Warped Tour is coming in August.
School gets out June 3rd.
I have the best friends in the world.
I have seen Say Anything twice in the same month. Their new album is fucking amazing.
And I'm moving on from the traumatic events from this past summer.
Damnit, I lose.
Anyway, Tanner and I haven't talked in like, a month I think. Sometimes, it takes me a minute to remember why we haven't talked. Then I remember that he said he was going to go to the play at the school with me, but then totally ditched me. I'm over it. I saw it with better people anyway. :)
I have admit, everytime I see him in the halls (which is rare because he sluffs tons now. I think anyway. I don't... really... care enough to stay on top of it.) I say in my head "fuck me". Not because I want him, no, I mean it in the bad way, lol. I do get nervous. But see, only because he gives me this look... that says.... can't explain it. But it looks mad.
I don't really talk to Emerald anymore. Which is lame, but I texted her a few times... and she like... never replies? Should I try harder?
He likes Michelle now. Which is cool, I like her. She's nice and way funny.
Do I dare say it? I think, in a few, small ways, we kinda look alike. Michelle and I, I mean. Does that mean anything to anyone? Dunno. It's jsut something that I've noticed.
I have questions, yes.
The only reason I would want to know how far Megan and him went is because, well, did he abuse her too?
Abuse.
Lemme explain myself.
The words "No", "Don't" "Do NOT", and "Stop" are not in his vocabulary.
I'm not going to say any more than that.
Biggest accomplishment of the year: I have my virginity.
And I think that that has to be the most pathetic thing to be my biggest accomplishment. I dunno. Just an issue with myself, still.
I took so much blame.
I took so much blame.
I still hang out with Merrick. :) It's kind of hard to, considering that he lives 200 miles away. But I did see him a few weekends ago. It was nice. We didn't kiss, or even cuddle. We talked, and caught up. We goofed around, and joked. Just as we were about to watch our movie though, I had to leave. Yeah, perfect timing Dad. :)
I'll admit another thing. I do NOT want a boyfriend. I do want to be single. I don't want to be in a couple. But, I'll make an exception. I like Merrick. I do. Did I like him while I was with Tanner? Hell no. He was my buddy. :) But then I got the chance to get to know him better, and well, it goes on from there, and it would make sense if you have read my earlier journal entries.
Anyway, Merrick is the only guy I like. So, guess I'm staying single, just like I planned.
Let's see here... What else is new?
I dislike Journalism class.
I'm so excited for Alice in Wonderland, Tim Burton's version.
Mmm, BAM is making our shirts. It's a slow process.
Breathe Carolina is coming back in Feburary.
Prom is the day after.
Hellogoodbye is in March.
I have realized that I am all-around average. In every, single way.
And that, my bitches, is what's up.
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