I'm a mess. Always second guessing my decisions, going back and forth, tearing everyone and myself apart. I am my worst enemy.
When in the beginning you love someone so completely and then you find out it was all a farce for them. Time goes by, you try, they slowly learn the lessons of life that you have known for what seems like for so long.
But the joke is still on you. Because he starts to love you as you did him but time has taken it's toll. Love has been redefined. You still grow many paces ahead and what does that leave you with?
A hot mess.
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Lullaby
08:29 Oct 28 2012
When you learn something as you did, you feel a fool, but in honesty, you're not the one to blame. There's nothing silly about loving someone, completely and thoroughly and if anything, whoever broke your heart and your spirit is the foolish one, because you're an amazing woman - any man would be lucky to have you.
They are the stupid ones, and they are going to now pay for it with the loss of your company, your affection, and your love.
People'd kill for your love, you know. Every day, I'm grateful that I know you, and every day, they must be kicking themselves for their stupidity.
PandorasBx
08:43 Oct 28 2012
♥ you Katie, thank you.
BLOODLIFE
11:48 Oct 28 2012
It scares me to think that I understand exactly what you are saying. I do know it gets easier, I just wish I knew when!
KanePendragon
18:13 Oct 31 2012
This is one of the worst feelings on the planet. I do understand all to well. Still have not figured out a way to let it go. It hurts when you have put everything you have into someone and it is not returned. I hope you find peace and love and everything that makes you feel whole again
PandorasBx
06:42 Nov 01 2012
Just taking it one day at a time right now.