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My heart is racing. And I tremble to hold back the tears that threaten to fall knowing that if I let go I may make the same mistakes that I have before. I tried to keep my calm when all I wanted to do was cry out in pain.



Why is it that some people can never let go of their past? They seem to wallow in their own pain as it is comfortable to them. Maybe it is a shield so that they cannot move forward and face another risk? I wish I knew because his lingering hurts me.

Well I guess I went off last night here in my journal lol, and have heard back from him and am retaining my ACM status. Damn straight. Come to find out there are a few snakes in the grass, one I expected but the other I did not. Needless to say I am keeping my eyes open and the prospect of opening my own coven is looking like a better idea everyday. I think I have a firm foothold on my sire status now. One day at a time but rest assured, I have removed my rose colored glasses.

I can't believe you would have the audacity to take my ACM from me because I had a house fire and missed ONE whole day of not being online!!!!! If that is the way this coven is ran then I don't want to be a part of it anymore and would rather be where I am appreciated. I am hands down the most active member and my favor reflects that as I have only been here for 7 months and no one in our coven comes close. I give that forum spark and my heart so punish me by all means and just remember that when I go it was your own doing. There has to be more to this and I think its a personal issue but by God if I know what it is.....Jesus I only missed posting one damn day un-fucking believable I'll probably get in trouble for writing this but who cares its my journal, my venting platform, and I am in complete and utter dismay. I have to wonder who my true friends on here are anymore and what their agenda is, can't trust anyone anymore....