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I always see him in the hallway. He tries not to notice me. He is always around his friends and I have an idea that he wants to be near me, alone. Like me I think he is trying to pull away as I feel my heart get heavier whenever I look at him. I know that my love for him will never be expressed as I walk by him to homeroom in the morning. As long as he is around his friends, I will never speak to him and he will never speak to me. As the days go by I tell my friend Jen that I like him. She tells me to let go, that he doesn't love me, but I know for a fact that what she desires from me will never happen. You see, my friend Jen is Bi. I have this feeling that she wants me for herself or that she and the one I love are secretly going out. Somehow, I doubt that she and he could ever be as she is Emo and he is a Jock. In the begining of the school year he looked so different. Like sadness has swept over him, depression setting. To me it is unknown but I felt strange just looking at him. He started to wear black and greys, but now he wears sweatshirts in school. Maybe because it is winter time? I always wear a sweatshirt. Black and grey shirts and tanks. I want to know what he is thinking. Does he think of me? If he does, does he hate me? Our school had spirt week and we had to go to the auditorium. I was waiting for my friends near the doors and he walked in and gave me a look that I couldn't read. I feel a strong connection with him even though we don't really know eachother. I know it sounds crazy, maybe it is love a first sight, or we were together in our past lives. I have this yearning to be with him forever and I am going to wait for that day to come. But I fear that that day will never befall me as I sit here typing on the keyboard. I want to be in those arms and be protected for all eternity.