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this month has been the worst month in my 19 years of being alive. almost no one remember me supt for 7or 8 ppl in which my mom clames it's my faulth.... maybe it was but this year i didn't have a birthday i had a nightmare she was blaming everything on me she made my birthday the worst ever she made it where it was her day instead of mine she was drunk which makes her a huge bitch which made it worst then she got pissy because i wanted to borrow the car to go get snacks to go to a water park but she decided no even though she knew we had to and it wasn't like she was going to have to pay to gas the car up my mother-in-law was going to fill up for the trip up and then she would fill it when we got back because she was gratfull to my mom for allowing us to take the car but nope she had to call my husbands aunt to come get us and take us where we needed to go but anyways she just made my birthday a nightmare then she thinks i'm against her which i'm not she thinks i chose my other dads side instead of her's which in fact i have chosen no ones side upt my best friend since i was 6 and my husband that's the sides i chose but she doesnt understand and plus she takes things the wrong way if i where to tell her a joke she would think i would mean it but i don't but oh well i am a nobody to everone so wat does it matter

well today was my birthday and well it was hell in this world it started out with only 6 ppl remembering my birthday and just as i thought no one cares as usual my mom had to go and run it even more by getting drunk and making me even more upset and said that it's my fault that my birthday has been so fucking bad when she's the one who started the fight my husband and i are suppouse to go to a water park this weekend with some friends and well she was going to let us keep the car and she said in front of her friend and my husband that i could keep the car after we got done at olive garden cause thats where i like to eat at and then when we get to a stop light she turns to take me and my husband home even though she said we could keep the car and so that started something and well it was the top of the cake so now no car and i have to deal with my least fav aunt on y husbands side so yea happy fucking birthday to me no... no... this was no birthday this was a nightmare thats what it was was a nightmare i didn't have a birthday.........

well its almost my birthday and so far no ones remembered my birthday i'm going to a water park that i really really dont want to go to my mom is making me very depressed cause she almost wouldn't talk to my other dad because my dad that i grew up with make up things she tells me all the time to leave things alone that he's brain ingure (sp?) but i think most of the time he knows he's doing it and doing on purpose which pisses me off but i cant do anything cause he is her only way to have an apt shes to sick get any kind of work so i don't knowwat to do other then to end my life because it seems like the only thing to do that is good anymore i mean no one would miss me so wat does it matter..... i hate my life