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I lay awake at night,

thinking of you.

Wondering if your alright.

Feeling that lonely feeling again.

I wish they would send u home.

I try to live life as if your just at work,

But I know in my heart, Your not.

Hoping that you come walking in the door.

Even thou i know u won't.

Waiting by the phone,

waiting for your call.

Staring in to space,

trying to remember your face.

Looking at all our pictures,

Feeling the space that seprates us now.

That lonely feeling is creeping up

everytime i hear our wedding song.

God, i wish this war would end.

So you can be with me.

But for now, I spend every minute of the day and night Alone.

Wanting you in my arms.



How i wish these tears would stop.

When i hear your vioce.

How i would love for nothing more but to have you in my arms for just one more day right now.

Push this lonely feeling aside,

Just for it to hit me later on.

Sending you letters

is not the same as leaving you love letters everyday in your lunch.



Lonely as hell wishing and hoping you come back to me.

I wish he didnt have to leave.



I wish this wasnt killing me.



I wish I didnt have to hide my feelings and just cry all the time



I wish I didnt have to say good bye.



I wish I could just hold him forever.



I wish this wasn't ripping us apart.



I wish i could tell him didnt have to go.



I wish this wasnt going on.



I wish this would stop.



I wish I could be the one, who could be strong and hold my head up high.



I wish i didnt feel like falling apart.



I wish, i just wish.

Running out of time.



Running out of my mind.



Running to the nearest corner and hinding my tears.



Running out of this place faster then hell, can't take it, dont wanna be the one everyone runs to when they feel like they come before me.



Running out of patience, can't deal with anything anymore.



Running out of space to hide my feelings.



Running to the near bar and drowning all my problems.



Running from the ones who stand beside me.



Running from the ones who love me most.



Running out of the door and running straight to you.



Begging and pleading for you not to go.



Dont want to be the one stands alone on the river side.



Dont want to be the one who crys alone as i lay down to sleep.



Dont want to stand here and never know.



So i run and i run,



where i run i dont know.



Its all black,



there is no light.



the tears and the nightmares all fade into one.



Running on no sleep,



running on nothing at all.



Can't stop these tears and i cant stop these nightmares.



Holding so tight, on everything tryingto make it right.



Holding on to you, dont want to let go.



But this is the life i chose,



For I am An Army Wife.

Its almost time to say good bye



Its almost time to sleep alone.



Its almost time to stand here like i'm not dying.



Its almost time to send you letters in the mail.



Its almost time to sit by the phone waiting for your calls.



Its almost time to wish on every star, for you to come home.



Its almost time to cry at every little thing,



Its almost time to pray when the news says thing bad,



Its almost time for time to run out



Its almost time to watch him walk away.



Its almost time...

Don't know how your feeling.



I Don't know what your thinking.



I Don't know what your saying,



I Don't know what going through your head,



I Don't know how this makes you feel.



I don't know what to do without you here with me.



I don't know what is going on.



I dont know how i feel inside.



I dont know,



I dont know what the meaning of all this is.



I dont know why your going away.



I don't know how to make this easier.



I dont know how to stop the tears or the fears.



I dont know how to tell everyone, that everything wil be ok. whne i cant make myself believe it.



I dont know what to do to pass the time.



I dont know what to say when everyone askes if your ok.



I dont know what to do when the nights are long and lonely.



I dont know what to do when its raining outside and your not home.



I dont know what to when the world feels like its ending.



I dont know.