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I can't understand, what's going on in this world?

I can't understand what's going through your head?

I can't understand, why its had to end this way?

I can't understand why you would break our hearts?

I can't understand, whats going though my head.

I can't understand anything anymore.

I can't understand, why you couldn't see what this would do to me.

I can't understand what you were so scared of future.

I can't understand this pain because of everything that is happen.

i can't understand this love we felt. until that day you went away.

i can't understand why u had to die.

I can't understand why no one understand what u ment to me.

I can't understand. I just can't

crying eyes your dreams slipped away. a hurting feeling no one saw. heart aching for someone to help. but you never trunned to anyone. U were ur pain like a heavy cloak.

My heart is aching

my nerves are shot

my body is trembling

anger and fear

scared of all this bullshit

pulling you away

never know

what will happen next.

Trying my hardest

trying like everything dependng on it.

but i keep failing.

as a wife, as a step mother

help by no one

who hears my crys

dreams of you walking away

away forever

never know what tomorrow will bring

I wish this was different

i wish you could see everything that is happening to me

Why i'm changing

why i'm fading

why i feel like i am dying.

I wish you were here

i wish you could see my tears

i wish you could save me from this place.

I wish I could see your face

I wish my heat would stop beaking everytime i read your letters

I wish you could hold me at night

I wish you could hold me on this cold night

I wish you never left

I wish it was time for you to come home

I wish this stress would go away

i wish you could help me with all that is going on.

I wish you could keep these nightmares at bay.

I wish everything was the same

i wish you were here

i wish you could see me

I wishi didnt feel like i am dying inside.

I dont know how much more

of this i can take

My heart is screaming

my mind is driving me insane

everything still the same

except your not here

angery words

crying eyes

tempers falling

SCREAMS!

broken dreams

I dont know how much more

my baby can take

Hair pulling

eye scratching

stress!

fighting fighting

I can't get away

teeth grinding

dish throwing

neverous breakdown.

End of the week

All is calm

scary dreams

turns into teary nights

Sad long days

missing you in everyway

No reason why

you decided to give up and die

Looking around

It's so empty

Not seeing your face

Your locker is empty now

Your chair is still there.

I turn to lookat you

when i remember

I start to cry

Seeing our old friends and everything falls silent

we stand there looking as if the world came to an end.

Look around, everything is so sad.

What I wouldn't do to see your face walking down these halls

Happy days seem to be so far away

Everything haunting me

Could I have done something to save?

In the end, I just sigh and start to cry.

Oh, how we miss you so.