Talk about Weirdo's!!!!18:47 Jul 28 2005
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K Religion doesnt sit well with me.. Under NO Circumstances is ANYONE ELSE allowed to discuss religion with me .... Blame me not I will make the conversation End just like this one! Eeeeeehhehehehe
Jehonathan says:
I just asked to take a day off and got two
Jehonathan says:
actually four with the weekend
Nicnivian says:
lol to where?
Jehonathan says:
I want to understand the psychology of them giving telling me to come back Monday
Jehonathan says:
and giving me an additional day off
Nicnivian says:
ahh ok
Jehonathan says:
what is up with that?
Jehonathan says:
are they planning on firing me? or do they see that I need to take a day off once in a while too? like after eight months straight of not taking a day off, I thought today would be that day
Jehonathan says:
just cause
Nicnivian says:
there fine with it
Jehonathan says:
you think so?
Jehonathan says:
I think so too
Jehonathan says:
wanna know my heavenly perspective?
Jehonathan says:
I am thrilled with the idea of the knowledge that what I *do for people*, is love, and how I can have so much of that positive vibration
Jehonathan says:
yes, I will spend my free time thinking about how I love all those respectful people at McDonald's
Jehonathan says:
and what I would do for them
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you know that is something I would love to be free of all distraction to do
Jehonathan says:
think about it
Nicnivian says:
lol
Jehonathan says:
that beautiful high you get from being loved
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is yours
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to the degree that you love
Nicnivian says:
you wanna think about mcdonalds on your day off?
Jehonathan says:
I want to think about those lovely people on my day off
Nicnivian says:
your nutz
Nicnivian says:
I've barely spent 2min thinking of my co-workers since I've been off of work since january
Jehonathan says:
well
Jehonathan says:
do you give yourself meditation goals?
Nicnivian says:
mmmmmmm no
Nicnivian says:
I don't meditate
Jehonathan says:
well you oughtta
Nicnivian says:
cant
Nicnivian says:
I'm to closed minded
Jehonathan says:
you are closer to manifesting whatever it is you meditate on in your life by meditating on it than not
Jehonathan says:
I think
Nicnivian says:
who huh whaa how?
Jehonathan says:
heh
Nicnivian says:
how could I be closer to doing it if it's not likely I'd even come close to achieving the position to meditate?
Nicnivian says:
I DO NOT Relax
Nicnivian says:
lemme reprase that
Nicnivian says:
I CAN NOT relax
Nicnivian says:
I'm incapable of that acomplishment
Jehonathan says:
ok, do you have to have your body relaxed to bring your mind back to the same thought again and again
Jehonathan says:
you can do it whether you are doing pushups you can meditate then
Nicnivian says:
hows that suppsoed to make sense
Jehonathan says:
pushups, or running a marathon
Jehonathan says:
you can still meditate
Nicnivian says:
mm meditation is the art of something relaxing ... something calming
Nicnivian says:
something that alows you to feel and release
Nicnivian says:
I'm Not capable of that ,,, I'm uptight and freaked out 90% of my day
Nicnivian says:
the rest I'm being amused by various things or people
Nicnivian says:
meditation takes THOUGHT on ONE subject at a tyme
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another thing I am YET to be capable of
Nicnivian says:
lol
Nicnivian says:
I hop around like the energizer bunny on cocaine
Jehonathan says:
but just keep coming back to one subject
Jehonathan says:
it's simple
Nicnivian says:
my brain doesnt stop thinking of different things *snaps her fingres all around* it's usually my daily activities .. did I lock my car ... did I turn my puter on or off?.. did I shut the tap off ... did I leave the baby on the roof noo shes in the car phew ..
Jehonathan says:
the one thing I am realising I should keep coming back to is the loving kindness of Jah
Nicnivian says:
btw thats all in a 15second window when I sit in my car
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*points up*
Nicnivian says:
did you not see ADD
Nicnivian says:
Attention DEFICIT Disorder
Nicnivian says:
I can't keep my mind still
Nicnivian says:
wanna KNOW why I Dont watch the television?
Jehonathan says:
the loving kindness of Jah
Nicnivian says:
it's not becuz I dont think it can be educational
Nicnivian says:
it's becuz I'd wanna keep my finger on the change channel button ... cuz when you hold that button down and view the screen ..(do it some tyme so ya understand) THAT is EXACTLY how I SEE THOUGHTS in my stupid lil MIND Day In Day Out!
Jehonathan says:
maybe it's a blessing in disguise
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but um.. the loving kindness of Jah
Nicnivian says:
it's constantly moving they're all tv flash images in my mind even edited with the black and white fuzz inbetween each picture viewed
Jehonathan says:
see
Nicnivian says:
who's Jah?
Jehonathan says:
you're meditating
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Jah is the One True Cause of the universe
Nicnivian says:
o.O
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O.o
Nicnivian says:
ok I'm sorry
Jehonathan says:
see
Nicnivian says:
I REALLLLLLY Don't want to Offend you at all I DO Enjoy your company a great deal
Jehonathan says:
by reading the loving kindness of Jah
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you are meditating with me
Jehonathan says:
see you just meditated a little bit with me there
Nicnivian says:
I do NOT BELIVE in HIGHER Being's .. I Do Not belive in said GOOD GOD Nor BAD DEVIL .. I Do Not BElive in EITHER so therefore I am NEVER Disapointed!!
Nicnivian says:
My brain thinks Scientifically ... we were all comprised from a single celled organism that mutated and multiplyed
Jehonathan says:
how can you solve your problem with distraction if you do not realise that the very distraction is a demon
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?
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demons can be cast out
Nicnivian says:
I do not talk about religion becuz my views seem to confuse others and make them angry .. hence why I said I do NOT want to offend you
Jehonathan says:
medicine will give you side effects
Nicnivian says:
I ENJOY Distraction tho
Nicnivian says:
you take away my so called said Demons and what do I have to live for lol
Jehonathan says:
to simply be silent to the distractions of your mind is to establish your power over them
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I believe
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because silence is the ultimate weapon of power - love that quote
Jehonathan says:
I've been doing it and noticing how clear minded I had become, but then they came back again with more distractions
Jehonathan says:
I need to keep responding with silence I guess
Nicnivian says:
*rubs her face* ohh Man Jehonathan understand me on this ..... I am who controlls me .. I belive in NO Higher being .. therefore no Higher being will think of me I am thus said to be an outcast from whichever god ... no god accepts you when you denounce any faith or help given!
Jehonathan says:
well think about what's good for you, having a relationship with a truly all powerful person, God, or not
Nicnivian says:
and I've never taken medicines for my ADD I've delt with it as it comes and sicks me in the brain day after day!
Jehonathan says:
cmon, like the choice is obvious that a person would want to be a witness to God's miraculousness
Jehonathan says:
he would want that kind of power and excitement in his life
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anyone would
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that knew what was good for them
Nicnivian says:
I don't wanna witness SQUAT of what someone strange man hasta say
Nicnivian says:
remember I'm Xenophobic
Jehonathan says:
well you listen to what I say
Nicnivian says:
yes but is GOD gonna chat to me on MSN?
Nicnivian says:
if he did then therefore I would belive
Nicnivian says:
IF EITHER showed them selves to me .. or shall I say SMITE ME lol then yes I'd belive in them lol
Jehonathan says:
well, if you've seen my light, you've seen my Father
Nicnivian says:
until prooven otherwise they are a figment of an unhealthy mans obsession in my eyes
Nicnivian says:
I am NOT Religious PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE don't try to make me make you understand .. I REALLLLLLY LIKE TALKING TO YOU ... about other things of corse!
Nicnivian says:
if we keep going this corse YOU yes YOU will end up Hating me forever!
Jehonathan says:
would you turn down a million dollars from me?
Nicnivian says:
I will not hate myself becuz I KNOW in myself I am doing what would be right for ME alone!
Nicnivian says:
Yes of corse I would why the hell would I need money when I have friends
Jehonathan says:
would you turn down a billion?
Nicnivian says:
and if the money was pushed upon me I would only share it with friends and loved ones anyways
Jehonathan says:
well cool then
Nicnivian says:
yes the same thing
Jehonathan says:
that's what I'd want you to do
Nicnivian says:
money is worthless when you have noone to love and noone to share your love and friendship with
Jehonathan says:
hmmm... maybe you're a natural Kabbalist
Nicnivian says:
my name is hebrew thats all
Nicnivian says:
it means consicrated to god
Jehonathan says:
Kabbalah believes that the heavenly door is opened to you receiving when you are receiving in order to give away what you receive
Nicnivian says:
often Kabbalah A body of mystical teachings of rabbinical origin, often based on an esoteric interpretation of the Hebrew Scriptures.
A secret doctrine resembling these teachings.
Nicnivian says:
Sorry I HAD to get a dictionary term ONLY becuz what I've read and what YOU know seem to be different
Jehonathan says:
see let me tell you about myself
Jehonathan says:
I'm the type of person that seeks to be spiritually divine, through finding various mystical teachings, I have pushed myself down that path
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I have learned that pain is the way to redemption
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it can be one
Nicnivian says:
remember IIII Moved home to save my family .. I did not want to see my family in the streets while I bought a new home with money I had rightfully saved .. I moved home got them out of financial debt ... now get this not once not twice but 3xs .. my mother and father owe me $47,000 in debt ... BUT I do not ask them for a cent back .. why? cuz they fed me clothed me kept me ALIVE ... and now ...
Jehonathan says:
that is right
Nicnivian says:
I ask them in return to extend to me and my daughter the gracious gift of happiness that they gave ME Growing up in there house!
Nicnivian says:
BUT God has nothing to do with it .... it's call LEESA KNOWS HOW TO SAVE AND IM GENERIOUS WITH WHAT I HAVE so
Jehonathan says:
well.. God has everything to do with it, before you were even born and had life, God had inspired billions of people to generosity
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with a single sentence
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the generous man will be prosperous
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over thousands of years
Nicnivian says:
ummmm doesnt sit well ..... my family is fucking greeeedy as pigs (cept my mom)
Nicnivian says:
my mother is the only one who ever sacrifices things for other even in her family
Nicnivian says:
even I am closed minded on some things
Nicnivian says:
and even on religion
Jehonathan says:
do you know what makes a person open minded? if so tell me
Nicnivian says:
my father is roman catholic my mother is protestant
Nicnivian says:
I am nuthin in the house of the lord and I'm rather happy about it
Nicnivian says:
No cuz I'm NOT Open minded as much as I am close minded
Jehonathan says:
right but what does open minded mean to you?
Jehonathan says:
some people think that means being open to old sin
Jehonathan says:
to repeating an old sin
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I don't get that
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but what does it mean to you?
Nicnivian says:
umm to me it means accepting what others have to say agreeing and beliving in them ..... I HAVE the ACCEPTANCE part down just barely ever the agreeing or beliving .. I just keep that shit to myself or NOONE would talk to me
Jehonathan says:
the intelligent man is open to new ideas, he even looks for them
Nicnivian says:
*sighs* k so PLEASE can we stray AWAY from religious topics .. I dont wanna become a NON friend to you for hurtful things I may say or do and regreat another day!
Jehonathan says:
well.. anything you say no matter how bad it is, won't matter to me, I'll still want to give you a million dollars
Nicnivian says:
mm not me I hate new places I hate new people I trsut no place nor anyone ... I haveta be well worked into it befor I like it
Nicnivian says:
but I dont waaaaaant a million dollars *whines* I just want a normal conversation with a riend like we used to have lol
Jehonathan says:
see I just want to show you some love
Jehonathan says:
I find giving money is the easiest way to do it
Nicnivian says:
see thats what I'm talking about lmao
Jehonathan says:
so it appeals to me
Nicnivian says:
showin love is great but dont try and gimmie money lmao it'll make me feel cheap
Nicnivian says:
lmao
Nicnivian says:
I'm sorry I'm REALLY trying to be good about this
Jehonathan says:
um
Nicnivian says:
but it's really hard ... it's distracting me from my brooding thoughts
Jehonathan says:
well some news for you, I don't have a million dollars right now
Nicnivian says:
thats fine
Nicnivian says:
just keep picturing it in yer mind one day it'll come
Nicnivian says:
for now play the lottery
Jehonathan says:
"use money to win you friends, but keep in mind that when money fails them they will welcome you into eternal dwellings"
Nicnivian says:
ummm I have very few friends ... why would I want too win MORE friends?
Nicnivian says:
I have 4 people on my MSN and I have 6 people in my e-mail
Jehonathan says:
well see, you give someone money, you give them love, the money disappears, the love remains
Nicnivian says:
I think I have more enimes then friends come to think of it
Nicnivian says:
HAHAHAH you think the love remains
Nicnivian says:
but it doesnt
Nicnivian says:
NOT if ya never knew the person before!
Nicnivian says:
TRUST ME
Jehonathan says:
well, you don't have to worry about me being your enemy, I just have to let you know that if you were mean to me, or cruel, I would want to do you good
Nicnivian says:
I've given a so called friend money to get outta a tight spot
Nicnivian says:
that friend took off I've never seen him again in my life and its been 10 long looooooooong years
Nicnivian says:
how old ar eyou again?
Jehonathan says:
20
Nicnivian says:
k yeah I thought so
Nicnivian says:
k I'm NEVER cruel or Mean ... now dont take this the WRONG WAY lmao .. ONLY will I be cruel or mean in BED damnit!!!!!
Jehonathan says:
uh... hmm
Jehonathan says:
in bed eh?
Nicnivian says:
lol
Nicnivian says:
yes why be cruel to people?
Jehonathan says:
try this next time you're feeling horny or having an orgasm.. think about silence
Jehonathan says:
silence deepens love
Jehonathan says:
it will really calm your spirit
Nicnivian says:
the only cruelty would be teasing and why would there be teasing if it wasnt sexually?
Nicnivian says:
cant think of silence when your screaming skyward now can ya mr. chuckles lol
Jehonathan says:
oh I find it's the perfect time
Nicnivian says:
is it still possible if said screamer has been known to break glass?
Nicnivian says:
makeing a dog yelp?
Jehonathan says:
hmmm... do you desire to make that kind of sound?
Jehonathan says: :)
Jehonathan says:
in bed?
Jehonathan says:
have you ever?
Jehonathan says:
wait I'm sorry I assumed you were a screamer or something.. are you even a sceamer?
Jehonathan says:
or is that unsuitable conversation
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?
Nicnivian says:
well I was making conversations but yes
Nicnivian says:
yes I am
Jehonathan says:
hmm... so have you ever made that sound?
Nicnivian says:
yes
Jehonathan says:
umm.. I'm speechless
Nicnivian says:
well that was my plan all alone
Nicnivian says:
along
Jehonathan says:
well I took the bait didn't I
Jehonathan says:
if that's what you could call it
Nicnivian says:
lol no bait
Jehonathan says:
ok
Nicnivian says:
I just wanted to nicely nudge you in a topic that doesnt make my head go explody!!
Jehonathan says:
but I did turn the conversation in the direction you wanted it to go
Jehonathan says:
so you could tell me that
Jehonathan says:
I see
Jehonathan says:
a high sex drive is the mark of a genius supposedly
Nicnivian says:
apperntly
Jehonathan says:
I guess I'm like a super genius
OHHH MAN That's one LONG ass read! Sorry
BUT you haveta give me Credit for getting what I wanted in the first place .. OUTTA THAT FUCKING CONVERSATION! eeeeeehehe
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