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I sit alone in this darkness

With no one to comfort me

The people I thought were there

For me have left long ago

Now I wait for someone to come

And show me the light to

This pathetic life I live.

I hope my lifemate will come

And take me away from all

This self-hatred and show me

A new way to live

Without him I long for death.

The cold stone floor offers me

No warmth, my lips are blue

And sore, my body holds no more

Heat to help me get through

I give up...I know my lifemate

Will never come for me

Like the others he too

Has betrayed me.

You said you loved me

You said you'd never leave

You said you'd always be there for me

But where are you now?



You said I was beautiful

You said I was the best girlfriend you ever had

Then why aren't you here?



You said you cared

You said I was all that mattered

You said we would make it

Was it all just a lie?



You said you wanted to marry me

You said you wanted to have kids with me

But you abandoned me.

I sink down into the

Black pit of despair

And wait there for my

One true love

Who will rescue me from

Night's Embrace



The cold sinks into my bones

I long for the fire to

Burn me and bring me to life.

The ground is hard and icy

To the touch.

As I lie in wait and watch

The happy couples as they pass.



I don't belong here.

This world is not meant for me.

In a dark room

There is not a sound

But someone is there

She's crying silently in her head



She sits there

On her bed

Under the moon

Wishing she were dead



No one heard her screams for help

To save her from herself

All she wanted was to be loved

Was that to much to ask?



They found her in the morning

With a gun to her head

Blood on the pillows

And a note that said



" By the time you find me

It will be too late

I've had enough of this world

And guys are to blame."

He walks into a room his head

Full of thoughts of death

His head hung low

He looks up

Sees two massive hooks

One, bright gold

The other rusted black,

Blood dripping from it

He looks up and grabs one

He starts to climb the rope attached

For he sees a bright light

Beaming from the end of the rope

He slips, falls

He screams as the hook forges into his skin

He hangs as his life slowly drips on the floor

She runs into the room with a bible in her hand

As she looks at the man next to her

she prays

She pulls on the golden hook

She starts to repel into the ceiling

He looks up and watches in horror

As the hook rapes her neck and she is set on fire

Her lifeless burnt body falls to the floor

As her cinder of life rises to the ceiling

The ceiling collapses in flames

Heaven or Hell

Your dead all the same.

If everything's wrong, then why can't I leave?

Ive never felt so alone.

Ive never felt so depressed.

And yet, I stand here

....with my fake smile,

....my fake happiness,

....my fake laughter.



How can you not see through them?

How can you not see how dead my eyes are?

How can you not hear my tears at night?

How can you sleep, knowing the pain

You have put me through?



I'm still the same 17 year old girl

I don't feel the blade up against my

Skin anymore,

But I still feel the scars.

I still feel the erotic pain as blood

Trickled down my wrists.



You don't love me! You love the clone, you created!

If everythings wrong, then why can't I leave?



My eyes are dried from all the tears I cried.

My heart beats slower.

It's getting harder to breathe.

Im getting weaker, I have no strength

Left to push back.



I give up. You win.

I fall back into the river of my sheded tears

....and drown in sorrow.

A sharp intake of breath,

And all my troubles erase

The cold metal prickles at my fingertips,

As the warm liquid trickles down,

Dripping into a tiny puddle on the

White marble floors.



As I watch the fountain flow,

Flashes of memories stain my eyes.



A crazed smile spreads across my face

I know it's finally over,

All my pain and misery

I know I get the last laugh.