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As I read some of the threads in the forum, I am a bit confused. I never realized how many people actually WANT to be accursed and hated. My self-loathing and pity lead me to scorn people with my “affliction”. Until recently, I was under the impression that, outside of Hollywood, no one wanted to be this way. The pain and isolation in it’s self is enough to make anyone sell their soul to be “normal”. However, here I find people who actually lust for the life that I so intensely want to leave behind. I find that incomprehensible. I think, more then anything, I want to understand the fascination others have displayed here. I was considering surrendering my membership due to the large amount of intolerable fakes and phonies. I have seen countless profiles of pink and fuzzy kittens and all this “love and hugs”. I am not sure they are in the right place. This will be an educational experience even if it does not bring me the answers I sought.