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Probably later today


I'll work on updating my profile and photos...


Can someone make me a rating stamp...


Please?

So, next month is the big day for my Fiance and I!!! I'm excited and nervous to be completely honest. We have a lot of people who are planning to come to this very small wedding of ours as well. I just can't believe this is happening. remember in the past, when my son's dad used to use a ring to keep me from leaving him and then he came out saying


"I never had any intentions of marrying you."


That definitely left a sour taste in my mouth as well. So, things ended after awhile as well. Anyways. That is beside the point. The current point is, that next month, I'll be getting married and well, I do believe in full honesty that he is my soulmate. I used to never believe in that. This guy, however, has literally changed my mind and has made me actually feel wanted as well.

Now, onto something else. I have a roommate and I am not entirely sure how I actually still feel about this. My fiance and I did this, to help him out of a toxic situation from his family, yet, I feel like, in some way, his manic depression and bipolar has done a lot more damage than good within the household. Even with medications for him and myself,I just don't think it helps. There are moments, where I just wish he could actually be happy and not have a bad moment, but something like that? Yeah, that's not possible it seems like. I just hope we get him up and on his feet soon. It's been a challenge for sure, to help him pull out of his moods and manic episodes as well. I just don't know how much more I can take, before I break again.

That fear, still lingers with him living with us. I feel like, he's gonna have a bad episode and it's gonna cause me to become unstable once again. I'm just not sure anymore....

He also, talks to my other half more than he talks to me as well....I just feel like, he's talking about me...Maybe it's just my anxiety? I don't know....

My medication specialist did add another medication to help with my anxiety. Looks like I may have sever anxiety now...

One a good note, I do get to see my son. I haven't seen him for 4 weeks due to my ankle injury I suffered back in February. Let's hope I still can keep up with his little tail.