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i have played around for far to long and put of the task that i do not whant to finish for far to long

no matter what happens i need to finish the job





it will be our anniveresry on halloween but he will spend it with his friends i am sure

i have tried to hard to please him and while doing it i left reality far behind i have also betraid my self



the dick was good but not worth this!!!!



WAKE THE FUCK UP YOU LAZY ASS AND LEAVE THIS HELL BEHIND



IT IS WAY PAST TIME TO MOVE ON!!!!









but i still love him evan if he does not

well here i am three in the damn morning washing clothes



fuck i should be in bed but i will proble just kick the old man in the ass if i do

fucker wont help out or put out!



so... here i am trying to edit my profile and i am hgetting pissed at my pics not working

oh well just another sighn that i should not be up at this time.... fuck!

when i drink cologne i prefer to be by my self

lol

tick tick tick



the clock has been stuck at 3 for days



time is a pain to me it teases me and reminds me that i dont have all that much left and i am not getting any thing done

Be your self

becouse those who matter dont mind

and those who mind dont matter!!!!

i look at the keys and i tell my fingers what they must do yet i do not get them where they must be or what they must do WORK DAMN YOU

i ponder on the best writers in the world

does mr. king ever sit at his desk and scream at him self in the same way that i have done time and time again why must thius go on

i cant take it

this struggle between the parts of my defient brain





not sure if the light is on but once in a great while it fickers

i will just have to try harder to get these things out of

my head

somtimes i enjoy the company of the voices in my head far to much

unlike my kids they do listen and do what there told to do... somtimes

i dont understand girls as much as i should

and why dont they dispense "mothers little helper" like they used to?

and why dont it hur a dog when their tail thwacks on things and do they sell hair ball removal stuff 4 lesbians



there is always something strange drifting around in my head

i will try to put more in this journal buyt it depends if the voices out side of my head stop putting in orders

(mom she is looking at me< mom he touched my book and now its slimy, make me breakfast&get me a pop, poof mofo you are breakfast) he did not like my joke



ahhh fuck calgon

vodka take me away!!!!

find a penny pick it up and some day i might fucking get laid damn damn damn

i thought it was sopposed to be the other way around you know

the most popular posision is doggy style

husband begs and wife rolls over and plays dead lol not funny

omg

lack of sleep does bad things to to the brain

and if i just go off of the lack of sleap i have had

all my life i should be a freaking zombie but no brains

"booze need booze"

kidding it would be nice but i am not like most of my family i can do with out

so ... damn lost that thought

if i find it ill let you know

k

wellthings were peachy, smooth sailing, remote control holder shit i ment to say husband was busy playng with his toysand wack there went the freaking power right as i am making dinner,

and my spacing out @ss had just plugged in my lap top and phone (booo fuc*ing hooo )and had

i was about to head to the gas staion to take over their electric supply but i just was to damn busy to do so cuz the old man noticed his stupid tv was not going to turn on and i instanly becom his target for his dumb sense of humer sh%t hell throw somthing hit me and say trhat was funny huh i was only joking its all good though i am getting good at pointing out how stupid he is acting and his own dad laghs harder than every one else! lol...

so kids were freaking cuz there is no night light for bed time and ass spelunker there wont take go f#ck your self for a hint ....

but it all fell into place in the end so no complaints from me! lmao



MY MOM WAS INSANE FOR TRYING TO HAVE EIGHT OF US KIDS

good thing she only had seven...



bla bla bla





i love this place you all rock so hard

thank you!!!!!!

well as much i search i still am so alone!!!!!!

why aqm itrying to change my destany i know i am to be alone for all time but i try to fight it only to be misserable