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Ugh. I'm such a jerk. Last night I had talked with a friend (#1) who was I was going to visit with and do laundry at her place since the friend I usually visit (#2) wasn't supposed to be available. It wasn't a definite plan. I had lunch plans with a friend (#3) from school who I had not visited with in several months and I was going to get in touch with the other friend (#1) after lunch and see whether it would work out or not,etc. So then, the friend who was not supposed to be available (#2) texts, and she asks if we're getting together. So I texted back that that sounded good because I hadn't seen her last week. Meanwhile, I was hurriedly getting ready to be picked up by my other friend (#3) for lunch.

What I should have done was text my friend (#1) from the night before to tell her what I was doing since we didn't have a definite plan, and I knew she was waiting to hear from me, but I knew my lunch friend (#3) was coming soon, and I figured I could let her (#1) know after lunch, and if she for sure wanted to get together, then I would contact my other friend (#2) and let her know our visit would have to wait. Did I? No. Because I'm a jerk.

By the time lunch was over, I texted the second friend to let her know we were done visiting, and I COMPLETELY FORGOT to text my other (#1) friend. And I'm someone who does NOT do this. I HATE when people forget about me. I wanted to slap myself. I guess I just have too much on my mind lately. I finally remembered about 9:00 at night. My friend(#1) said she wondered what had happened and had waited to hear from me, even turning down an invitation from someone else because she was waiting to hear from me. I apologized, but what a crappy thing to do.

I swear my memory has been slipping more lately. Next time, if there is one, I am setting a reminder in my phone AND writing it down, AND I will contact the first friend BEFORE making plans with anyone else. (Something like "Hey, my friend I usually get together with who was unavailable is available after all this week, but won't be next week, is it okay if we postpone our visit until next week? It's up to you. I can see her in two weeks if you want to get together today for sure.) Simple, right? Not today, it wasn't. I kinda hate myself right now. I need to make sure this never happens again because, again, I hate the way it feels. The person who did it to me did it on purpose, rather than forgetting, but the result was the same. Feeling forgotten.

Now that I'm done (for now) telling myself I'm an awful person, I'm going to post this as a reminder and try to let it go. The best way to apologize to my friend is to make sure it does NOT happen again.

I graduated. All A's in the last semester. In the fall I'm going to the university. I only need 27 credits for my bachelor's now! This feels so strange. I hope I can get through this next semester okay. The school is a lot bigger, and unfamiliar to me.