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on that last night

my eyes turned to look across the sea

and I saw the exact moment

your light died in an eastern sky

part of who I was

nd who I’d ever be

ripped away from my soul

in the echo of a crashing sun

and hissing, the burning coals

fell into the churning salt water

lapping at my feet

through the haze I saw you beckoning

with the ring on my finger

transposed as the noose around your neck

and it was I who led you to the gallows

with soft promises

and gentle caresses

as I stared into the darkness

from the shore of our heart break,

for a moment i peered past the dying world

into your one and only weakness

to feel a pain I never knew before

slowly eating you away

the rope grew taunt then

and my self-control grew thin

for one second I broke free of all restraints

and turning to run to you, longing

to break open the cage I built for us

to rip away the distance we set before each other

but every lifetime we’ve had

together and apart

passed between us in seconds

and the lace curtain woven of iron

both delecate and impregnable

fell back to cover your face again

and reflections of you

are all that keep me company

we play charades in the darkness

and tag in the light

but never breaking through

to the weaknesses on the other side

with tears in my eyes and

fists clenched at my sides

I threw curses into the void

at a god I’ve never seen

but a will I fight against tooth and nail

and I lost myself in it’s designation

i’ve been swept aside

and I’ve been beaten down

but nothing has left me stoned,

crushed and bruised

or destroyed

like the love I share

with someone’s reflection

the nightlives come at random

beating them into submission

telling them how

it was

could have been

and will be



he’s sighed in resignation,

head bowed

as he’s left her to fade away

and he’s turned away regretfully

as she cried tears of fire

that burn the past to ashes



she’s taken his face in her hands

caressing away the pain

her heart breaking

as he slowly destroyed himself

and she’s turned her back while he’s pleaded,

fighting against invisible restraints



unbidden they find each other

in dark nights

and dreams of daylight

in places of green grass

and hollows of oak

where the sweetest dreams

and the bitterest nightmares

are one and the same



they both try and sever

the ties that bind

these two unwilling spirits

in the world of imagery

and mockery



but the past is future

the future is present

and present is past



lives come and go

lived one after another

circles repeated

i gave up long ago

i buried the past

yet still you entangle my life

I’ve seen your eyes

A thousand different times

Behind masks of every shade

Shining with out seeing

They persuade me in a dream

I’ve noticed your smile

Floating just out of focus

Above the shoulder of a god

A sublime imagery of faith

Convincing me of your strength

Somehow you shake the foundations of belief

With out saying a word

You destroy whole planets with a glance

Without noticing the holes that remain

I’ve seen you

Sitting in your cage

Breaking the bonds of friendship

That bound me to you

And tying others out of an emotion

I’ve never seen in you

Unbreakable in your weakness

The distraction I am to you

Fills you to overflowing

And I watch the frustration

Well up behind eyes of onyx

Your voice breaks

Like waves over me

And I sink into a sea of blood

That washes me away

To islands where you dwell

I watch you in moonlight

Searching the reefs

Uncomfortable in your uncertainty

That you’ll find what you forgot you ever had

I found that something of yours long ago

With out realizing how precious it was

I picked it from the edge of the eastern sea

Just as casually as you threw it in

And I hold on to the idea

That maybe you gave it to me.

you are always there

but i feel when you are gone

i stare off in the brilliance of a smile

that shines no where

every time we say good night

it’s the last time

every time you say “i love you”

it’s the last time



can’t cope with it

can’t cope with out

a vicious cycle

pulls us in

and never lets go

steal me away

set me free with fetters

tie me to you with heart strings

and let me love you

free

Loss of control

And will

Under the control

Right the wrongs

I did to you

Expecting no more



Before the end

Remains

An answer that

Drowns

Shores in fire

Hope fleeting

Again and again

Without end

Kneeling before

A wonder I cannot see

Hoping maybe



Just maybe

You’ll notice me

I am screaming

But no one can hear

The smile on my face



Betrays the answer

But fear tightly

Holds my hand



The words on my lips

Die with a look

There is nothing to be said

Nothing I can say



Will make you notice

Help me understand

Why the answers my heart knows

My head fights against

Something in your eyes



Speaks to me quietly

I know what you are

And who I must be

For you

And for me

I know what must be



Love I hate

But it does not leave

To the emptiness

....................................................You resign

To the helplessness

....................................................You fall

Nothing is as it should be

....................................................Never is

Images swirl around

....................................................Confusing

A softness in a voice

....................................................Can’t hear

A sadness in grey eyes

....................................................Can’t see

Distance in a look

....................................................Turn away

Hope in a heart

....................................................Never fades

A touch is brief

....................................................Burning

And lingers for days

..............................................................................Let me go

the hardness of hearts

steeled against the hand

fate and destiny dealt

choices we make

covered in sin

dripping in low self worth

turning slowly

discovering the evil

in ourselves

we hoped we'd never find

the deceitfulness i can be

the craving you can have

the regret i can bring

the demon you can release

oceans of fire

between souls of darkness

and rivers of emotion

corrode hearts of stone.



As if I couldn’t feel you dying.

if you look at me

I'll fall into your mind

through eyes of grey that hypnotize

and draw me in



if you smile at me

I will fall from grace

with an understanding of love

that only you explain



if you reach for me

i will fall in your arms

breathless and trembling

for what i've longed



if you touch me

my skin will burn

with the thrill of your fingers

and the pain of desire



if you hold me

I'll fall into your bed

through no fault of our own

with a passion

listen

read between the lines

hear what i whisper

and don't deny what it this is

you tell me all the time with out speaking

and i crumble in the reality of us

The taste of candy and cigarettes lingers on my tongue

The match burn on my hand still throbs in time with my heartbeat

The saltiness of tears remembered

The thoughts still tumbling around my head

The knowledge that she means more than I ever did

The feel that I am ugly

The ache that I just need to be touched

The dissatisfaction that I just want to leave

The fact that I am unlovable