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i guess i'm in one of those moods were i'm reflecting but not regretting just reflecting on the most recent past of certain events that oddly came out of my mind.



It's crazy what I've done out of emotions and just feeling somewhat good about someone. I started thinking of a certain person that was around but out of my own feeling of being rejected I fully resented. odd how this one person that you love one day they have to be gotten rid of in your life. I did enjoy the very few moments of time spent and the long hours of conversations when they occurred but now they are truly dead memories. I think to myself how because of you I am here now. but without you it wouldn't have happened. I think about how much it did hurt and how much as the days passed it grew and grew and i hoped that you would have known but didn't. I think this is why i've acted so bitchy in my own way about shit. so now i'm here reflecting on this lesson learned. but luckily love doesn't live here now.. i think i have forgotten it or somehow just lost it with this person. thats all i could really come out with I do appreciate you taking that burden from me. I've made my own amends with this crazy road behind me. although even though this person is not in my life i do feel that ever presence that will never leave. this bugs me out.. but finally being over the pain of shit i thought i could forget but i truly i can't. but at least all the stuff that made me walk away will never be forgotten as well as the good times.