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Disgusting, ugly, fat, disgrace

are thoughts that feel my sacred grace

i am alone within the world

i'm hated by all that are born

they taunt and haunt me in my dreams

erasing all the dignity that ever leamed

they glare at me through satan eyes

my soul grows dimmer every day

why they hate me i can not say

they spread horrid words and heartless lies

these satan eyes that look at me

i want to hide away and die

i can hear their whispered words

i can see their hungry glares

i shake and quiver when their near

i wish i could just disappear

their horns and claws are slowly starting to come through

these words they say seep through my mind

i am disguested with myself

i hate the way they've made me feel about myself

i am the ugly procelain doll pushed off the edge to break

never to be put back together again

Bottled secrets never told,

molded into a big black hole,

No one knows what I keep inside,

Locked away deep in my mind.

Thoughts of disgust fill my head,

Along with anger, hate, and dread.

I'm dying slowly from the inside out,

Don't know how to let these feelings out.

Sorrow feels my thoughts of dread,

The thought of death creeps through my head,

I wish they would end and never come back.

So many joyful souls surround my blackened heart.

I want to escape these chains that hold me.

Why can't these feelings let me be?

I am the rottened fruit that bares no seed.

I am the priestess of death.

Do you fear me?

Do I make you sick to your stomach,

The way i play with peoples emotions?

Do you think pain hurts so good like I do?

Are you full of emotion and heart,

Or so you feel love as a slit to your throat?

Are you a victim of religion,

Or do you suffer for a crucifixion?

Do you wait for the halo of a priest to rescue you,

Or do you wait for the distortion of your mind by the devil?

Are you missionary or the assassin?

The hunter or the hunted?

The fool or the dark magician?

Do you cry in the face of darkness,

Or do you embrace it with me?