First of the First of the First entry.06:10 May 31 2008
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It's been too long.
I have had this before, Vampire Rave...but the first time I wasnt able to keep up with it. The second time I stopped because of another reason that I wont bother to even state.
I'm back now and I hope for good.
Life with me has been the same.
And leveling up my account seems harder this time. I remember it not taking this long the first two times. I also didnt reply so much the last two times to people that have come by my profile. I plan to try and get to everyone that has done so.
I dont want to come off as a rude bitch or anything.
^_^
I'm enjoying myself.
Right now....
but I think I've gone to unhealthy. I have been in my room all day, only to get out once to eat, but then i even ate in my room.
I went down to get some water, and came back up with the cup. And I went downstairs to put my cat away.
I got up and turned on my comp. I sat and did nothing but check the basic sites. watched my life on the D-list with Kathy Griffin. I love that show, and that lady!
I then watched a movie. It was actually good. Tokyo Raiders. I got that movie for free at Fye for buying a movie.
I then watched true life on MTV. I like watching that show too...
That's all I've been up to there...then I got on my comp again and made this account. I checked my myspace and my gaia account.
I've been in this room. and I dont feel so crazy.
My mother says ill go crazy...
I work mom, thank you very much. On my days off i like to be in my room on the internet or watching tv. or hanging with my friends. But they're at work...there is a scary dog out there who is trying to eat me...and quite frankly ...I'm content with my day.
I only ate once...and im starting to get hungry again. I dont want to eat cause its so late now...but that would be nice.
I'm going to eventually hit the hay and get some sleep.
I'm unsure if i work tomorrow...i should call work before i go to bed to see if i do or not. Well I was to work sunday but i dont know if it was changed to tomorrow. So i need to call...
OMG i cant believe my fear of dogs has returned.
Long ago i use to be afraid of them. THen somehow i became comfortable with them. Maybe cause my friends had dogs...big dogs, but nice ones....
Then last month, towards the end...some mildly tall dog try to attack me...he barked at me, but i scared him away. Before that some dog came after me barking trying to sniff my butt...then there's a dog that lives down the street that has come at me more than once.
The past few times these dogs came at me ....they where out of no where! And just yesterday I was trying to walk to work early in the morning and two dogs came out of nowhere. I paid no mind, but one came at me. It barked and i tried to shoo it away like the last dog that i had come at me like this, but this time it didnt work,...it wanted me and it wanted me dead! Some guy was near by, thankfully, to honk his horn and scare him. The dog ran away. I thought i had had my chance, but it saw me from the corrner of its eye or something and tried to go after me again! The guy honked, the dog backed down. I was too scared to think of swollowing the fear it had gittered out of me so I turned around and walked back the way i was leaving. Some boy was walking down the street and was able to go through...dog barking and all. I felt so weak and hopeless...I was trying not to cry.
I was having a good day and wasnt nervous or anything but that dog brought it out of me. I went to work the long way...i made it on time...thankfully! I walked into work...and some little girl asked me "Hey your that girl that was scared by the dog, arnt you?!" I said yeah i am and it was trying to bite me...that evil dog!
She, i could have strangled! She drove on by with her parents and they couldnt offer a ride!?
I'm afraid now and i dont know how ill get to work. What if's pop in my head ...
"What if the dog is on the other road i took, the next time im walking to work?"
"What if i try and take the same road, will the dogs be there again?"
I hate that this is bringing tears to my eyes!
I was having a good day, no nervousness in sight, but that thing shook me up the whole day. Every dog i saw freaked me out. I tried to shake it from my thoughts, but any moment i had free to think brought it back.
*sigh*
I'm getting a head ack thinking of it now...
I want to stop ....so i am.
Hmph...i thought i'd have nothing to say, but in the end i did...even if it wasnt the happiest thought in my head.
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Sinora
10:25 May 31 2008
If the dogs are not under control maybe you should call a dog warden ?...ps welcome back.