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I sit quietly as I always do at work, turned off the laptop and closed my eyes to the sounds of the world. It can be a facinating and calming meditation so late at night when you are one of the only souls up for miles around. But then reality hit me, I was alone. It struck me sort of hard, how long has it been since I felt the sensation of a beautiful woman giving herself to me, how long has it been since I have sat and smiled with a companion, a friend of trust. It struck so hard and so fast I had to sit and ponder about it and then I realized why it hit me and I am sure you already know why. Valentines Day. The day to remind those around who are alone just how alone you really are, to see the routine of roses, chocolates and heartshape pieces of candy giving little promises written in sugar. We all laugh about it everyday until the day comes knocking once again. I got up after a few minutes or so and sat back down in the lobby of my work hearing the same music, the same atmosphere and then in the corner of my eye I caught the glimpse of a spider creating a web in one of the security cameras.



"A spider creating a web" I said to myself. How marvelous of a creature. That is his whole life, no more and no less. It builds its life day in and day out and lives there, preying on whatever comes its way and when the wind or rain destroys its reason for living, it builds a new web in a new area or perhaps out of spite it rebuilds in the same place making it stronger and more adaptable. Yes....a spider with its whole world, not thinking or worrying about all the things it is missing, how the world is so much bigger than its little world. No, it adapts, builds a perfect web for the time being and when that web is gone, it gets back up and makes a new.



For some reason it hit me right then and there that Valentines day is not so bad after all, who cares if I am alone, I have things in my web to appreciate. More than most in this world. I have great people I have met just recently on this site for example, all with passion and stories to keep me smiling, I have a car, I have a phone and most of all I am alive for only one time and in that time I shall create a web so magnificant that all shall be in awe over it. This is my world and I get to choose how big or how small I want it to be.



Happy Valentines Day Ladies and Gentlemen, may today as well as the rest of this year bring you experiences so that you can create a strong and beautiful web of joy.

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PsiGoddesS
15:17 Feb 14 2012

At least you see things on the brighter side. Right now i'm having troubles seeing that bright side but hopefully that changes as the day continues on....

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AnaliethiaThionoeSangita
17:35 Feb 14 2012

I wonder what web you are spinning now.... *wink



~Ana

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I awake at 6:30pm, always seems to be the time for me considering my schedule which keeps me up until sunset. Makes me feel closed off from the world but I do not mind this, what am I miss out there? Traffic, snobs, those who dont appreciate the beauty of this world and never open their eyes wide enough to look past themselves. It has always been that way, search of those unique and those I can appreciate and can inspire me instead of the same old plain as paper members of society, but then again we all do that I suppose.

I awoke today with a sudden feeling of anger, as if my blood was on fire. I wanted to scream in the top of my lungs, run naked through the streets, swim under the night stars, something to make it go away but instead I took a hot shower and came onto here. It seemed to calm me down enough, enough to write about it anyways. I get those feelings sometimes, an escape from everyday, sometimes it gets so intense like it did today I dont know how to deal with it. Perhaps that is why I search for someone who can. The search continues.....

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AnaliethiaThionoeSangita
15:36 Feb 11 2012

I have felt that way. I'm sure many people have.

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PsiGoddesS
17:34 Feb 13 2012

What i really like about you is that you are very expressive of how you feel about things. Sorry that you have these feelings. *hugs tight*

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Another night and feel glad I joined this site. It has a lot of great people on it and I feel at home here. So many nights of no sleep, I doze in and out for a few hours then I am back where I was, almost in a dream state. I went to a bar today, I always sit in the corners where I can watch others and listen to them. Their convos, their attempts at trying to get lucky. Girls dressing up in costumes of seduction with each other wanting and craving attention, giving men a nibble or two and then tossing reeling in the line to cast it out again for another victim. I smile at these poor attempts at men who try so hard at achieving a mere nights pleasure only to wake up the next day and never speak to one another again. So much money spent on a night of liquid courage only to go home empty handed. I buy a bottle or two, take a few sips and watch the prowling eyes walk by me wondering my story but never sitting down and asking and then I leave as mysterious as I arrived, always alone I do this. I enjoy the prowling eyes of the hungry victims awaiting attention, always sensing me and always curious. Never do I aproach them, if they are worthy of anything they will stop the games of cat and mouse and just take a chance. Why be a member of the chain gang holding a ticket waiting in line in hopes that she picks me? Never will I stoop to such rediculousness, I never play games, I take what I want when I want.

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Starr2010
23:24 Feb 10 2012

I give it a 10 for being interesting and being yourself.

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angylyque
06:23 Feb 11 2012

Why never speak to one another again?

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AnaliethiaThionoeSangita
15:32 Feb 11 2012

People watching is fun...

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As I sit at work once again my mind tends to wander. Always working graveyard shifts from 8pm-8am or 12am-8am, always alone yet so many people surround me tucked in their beds dreaming innocent dreams. Do I envy them? Not really, I do enjoy working late nights where I am up all hours of the night. It is the same before I had this job, sitting up late at night, wandering the city with my hands in my pockets always looking for something, someone, but what I do not know.

Just another night here browsing and I come across this chat. I have seen others similar but not quite as unique so perhaps I shall stay here a while and see where it takes me as well as who I shall meet.

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angylyque
06:26 Feb 11 2012

I bet you will grow, change, and grow some again. I have learned a few things from this site. Sad as that may seem. LOL!

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