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I am floating in a lush green sea of lies

Every ripple enhancing the last lie

Restrengthening the doubt, reviving the truth,

The unknown

I thread lightly, silently

Playing my part diligently, unquestionably

i don't show what i feel

maybe it's cuz i won't, maybe i just don't know how to

the watery lies are cold and unforgiving

Strict and noncommittal, its weeds curve around me

like a cobra coiling around a thick rat

It does not squeeze me,

yet it does not allow me to breathe

Pulling my mind deeper and deeper into an abyss,

I don't know how to struggle.

Acceptance...some would call it

I call it loss...

Uninvited, i am pushed down under

Restricted and confused, I am forced to see

Truth

What I've known all along surfaces

Truth

Where he goes after he leaves us,

Truth

What happens behind closed doors,

Truth

The big hole sitting fat with satisfaction in the middle of the living room,

Truth

what mom does when she thinks no-one's looking

Truth

What i feel

Truth

Confusion

Truth

...Emptiness...

The weeds cutting through my skin slowly recoil

I am allowed to look away

But i'm not allowed to escape.

The lies slice me,

Licking happily at my wounds,

Exposing me,

I am not allowed to react...

But what hurts the most

What really kills me,

Is that when the lies leave me,

I'm allowed to breathe