~~~MidnightDreamer~~~
Ok, firstly, don't judge me on my age and how I look. Yes, I’m 14, but if you look deeper, you won't see anything but truth. Yes, I’m young but don't underestimate me because of that. Thanks ^.^
Bleeding Heart
She is a bleeding heart
Cut by razors so clean, so sharp
Torn in pieces, so viciously apart
She is a bleeding heart
She lets the blood drip away every time
Leaking through her skin but going straight to her mind
It doesn’t even hurt anymore she claims, she says
For the feeling of the pain oozing down, so salty, so warm
Never dyes, never surrenders- only stays
Thinking of this blood,
She gets this sort of satisfaction
To be in control once,
Cutting her own solution
This power- this manipulation of her own soul
Is something she don’t fear,
Something she can hold
‘Cuz for once in her life- she had the chance to be bold
But no one but her knows
Of this separate life- something she never shows
She knew how useless it would be
To actually try to tell somebody
Landing her pain on confused ears
Now a blank mask she’s forced to wear,
To cover up to her fears- to cover her iced tears
Yes she’s a bleeding heart
Each beat to the weak rhythm
Drowning herself in the blood
She’s so far out
She opened her mouth but all that was heard was a muffled shout
Deeper and deeper in she sink
Unable to breathe, unable to think
Beep- beep- beep-
The timer ticks away
We don’t know if she’ll even survive another day
She’s dying,
Everyone’s crying,
Her heart is bleeding,
Her world is crashing
Please- let her live another day
Don’t give this life away
To start over and live a new way
Pains and troubles of the past all washed away
Let her fight, let her stay
Let her feel the love and belief in what I say
Let the simple worded cure all begin today.
Whoop whoop!! I'm protected! ^.^ didn't even know that was possible but yey!
~~~Niki~~~
Hey there, I’m Niki, and to tell you the truth, I was gonna start a long lecture about myself as an introduction but I know you don’t wanna read that very long junk anyway lol. Well, I guess you really have to know me to know the truth about me ‘cuz I’m not so good about describing myself ;p I’m a dreamer (no, I don’t sleep all the time lol). A Dreamer- someone who believes. In what? - Everything. Yea, so I guess you can say I’m pretty optimistic and I hope for the best; but believe me, I know when there’s failing hope. Anyway, my life is not worth dying over and not everyone would take the time to listen, so you’d think I’m normal. No, I’m not gothic, neither emo, punk, vampire or even pure. I’m…just me. It’s ok though, if try to classify me, I’d understand that too. I’m 14 and am in high school. Hmm, I guess to better explain myself, I gotta introduce you to the people in my life. Here goes…
~~~Jayde~~~
I have one best friend- Jayde. She isn’t on VR though because she doesn’t have internet yet. But believe me here when I say, I’d do anything for her. She literally pulled me out of suicide many times and saved me from myself. She’s the type of person who care for you even if you were the worst person in hell, but beware, if you hurt anyone she loves, she could give you a serious b*** slap with merely words; you won’t wanna know what she’d do in person ;p Jayde if full of pure heart and she’s a true friend. I’d die to protect her. Love forever hun ;)
~~~Chan~~~
And then, there’s my boyfriend Chan. Lol, what to say about him? Well this guy isn’t on VR yet because he’s doing his finals for the next few months and I’m the one who demanded his concentration there; he respects that. He’s 16 and attends the school right opposite to mine. Oh, and I met him on the internet, yup, the net, though not on VR. He struck me when he actually listened when I talked. No one ever did that, and trust me, I can tell. He’s the kind of guy that would drop everything he’s doing just to be with you and would never take a second thought about it. He’s sweet, funny, adorable and yes, crazy. He’s the only person that’d call me in the middle of hell to ask me to bring him a lizard. He means more than he’d ever know to me and yes, he’d be there as long as I need him. I love you Chan ;)
~~~Family~~~
There’s my family next. Note that none of my real family is here on VR because they don’t see anything here but ‘evil s***’. I hate that they won’t take a second look and just try to see what I see. VR is my escape home away from home. It’s the only place that’d always be constant for me. But besides the stubbornness of them, they’re actually a great family. I’m lucky to have them. My mom-she’s always there bad or good, she’d always be. My dad-he’s the craziest person I know, literally. But he always knows how to handle things and show love. I admire that. And finally, there’s my brother-Nick. Lol, he’s a serious pain. He’s 23 but acts like 3. He always wants to play with me. He’s adorable nonetheless and overflowing with love. I hate him soo much at times, but still, I’d always love my big bro. ^.^
~~~School & Friends~~~
Deadly *glup*School!
Finally, there’s my school and friends. You see, I’m in convent but it’s really good, for me at least. The work is pretty tough but I manage to maintain my A’s ;p teacher’s are also a serious pain but so what- I gotta deal. My friends however are crazy as hell! In our class, our teachers refuse to teach cuz we would take of our shoes ;p yup, it’s ‘shoeless’ class. We’re fun, smart, crazy and so I’m not sugarcoating, a real pain but you gotta love us ;)
If you want to find more about me, you're most welcomed to visit my Journal and tell me what u think ;) I'm a writer. I write my life in it.
Just a lil poem to convince you- if you haven't been yet-
My Words
My words are screaming to be heard
To be given a chance
They won't disappoint
They want to touch you
In your mind and your heart
They want you to open up and accept
They want you to carry them- all through time
They want to guide you- to help you
They want you to hear them- loud and clear
They want you to understand them
They want you to spread the news- be it good joy, or bad sorrow
They want you to see them- to feel them
They want to show you so much more
They what to be free
But still, they're imprisoned here- dying inside of me
I most of all, want you to at least hear them
Please visit my journal- tell me what you think about my stories, personal info, poems and everything else
I have so much to offer here,
Don't turn away
Just hear me out
Yea lil monster thing- shake it!
Ratings
Ok, here's the thing. I wouldn't ever rate someone below 5 or any other unreasonable number like that. No, i'd rate you not only on how well your profile looks but your personality also. I'm sorry if you get a 7 for all you have on your profile in a "F*** the world". But i'm not like that. Feel free to rate me whatever you think i deserve- your wish. But please if you do rate me poorly, explain to me why. thanks ;)
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MY RESPONSIBILITIES TO YOU AS A FRIEND:
1. When you are sad, I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue, I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile, I will know you finally got laid.
4. When you are scared, I will rag on you about it every chance I get.
5. When you are worried, I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.
6. When you are confused, I will use little words.
7. When you are sick, stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall, I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass. And then think about helping your dumbass up.
This is my oath. I pledge it till the end. Why, you may ask; because you are my "friend".
Remember: A good friend will help you move - - a really good friend will help you move a body. Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel.
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You see, I'm just a regular teen
Nothing special
Though many people would argue that point with me
I don't think i deserve most things i have
I don't think i deserve the people in my life
I'm not worth arguing or fighting for
And i don't have alot of friends
I get jealous of other people sometimes
Then i'm reminded of what i have
And it all makes sense again
I feel emotions
Both very stong and some mild
Some drove me to the edge of insanity
Aldeady I've tried suicide
Jayde kept me from running away
All mistakes i knew i'd regret if i did
Thanks to all who saved me
I guess i should be grateful
Thanks
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