Alpha07:35 Apr 11 2013
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There is a reason I have always been an alpha. It has something to do with personality. I have been an alpha for so long, I couldn't possibly remember to be anything else. It has something to do with emotion. I can remember lessons taught. It has something to do with common sense. I remember lessons learned. It has something to do with communication.
A flip of a switch deep inside and all "emotion" becomes literally non existent.
I may not have always been an alpha to a recent group. This has started entirely too many years ago, in real life... In what I like to call Wolven's World.
I am an alpha because I run my life. It is as simple as that. I do what I wish to do, whenever I so choose to do it. I follow NO ONE. I follow NO RULES. I work for NO ONE but myself. I run free. I see more freedom in my life than most typical humans do.
That is the beauty of being ME.
Now do not get me wrong, do not mistake me.... some can whisper all they choose over how I am.
Its amazing those who judge me. its amazing the ignorance of those who assume the worst of me.
I find it humorous, really, given the fact that I have NEVER once in my life, ever said "I'm all that!"
Most amazingly... is the FACT that I will always, unlike most others.... be the FIRST to admit my flaws. And I am flawed. There are many flaws.
So, by NO means whatsoever, do I ever ever claim to be the best, to be better than any other, nor to be "all that"
Hahaha I still laugh at this.
My flaws are exactly what make me- ME.
Unlike most others-
I have thus embraced my flaws, and have chosen to welcome them as the biggest part of my life.
This is where things take a different turn. Seeing as most deny their flaws, or chose to ignore them, or hide them, or hide from them...
I put my flaws on a pedestal. This has cause an equal balance of sanity and insanity when balancing the mind such as this... and i can even enjoy my insanity at times.
Let me give you a little more insight......
I've lived through good times, great times, rich times, poor times, Hard times, rough as all hell kind of times, might as well let the cat out the bag...and say "Abusive Times" as well.
And from each and every fucking different kind of time I have lived through.... I have become a whole new monster.
My demons live not only inside me, but outside as well.
And occasionally, I like to let the demons come out to play...I find some twisted enjoyment in misery.....as well as enjoyment in happiness.
So I will say this once, and once only....
Do not judge me. You still do not know the first thing about me. And everything I have listed thus far...is only the very tip of the ice burg.
The only thing is, I will not allow you into my world to find out. I am an open book...but ONLY to those I so choose.
And if you have laid judgement upon me... I assure you, I'll let you keep your assumptions.....for as always and given my personality... I really couldn't give a fuck less.
As alpha, I will easily, and without emotion, turn my back to you and grin knowing the level of ignorance you carry within yourself.
Welcome to my world.... my freedom... where I choose not to entertain such ignorance. Now that... I am above.
I am well aware of the balance between good and evil. Kindness and the polar opposite. And I know when to use each.
I am calculating and cunning. Life is a game of chess.
And I, such as a pack of wolves hunting in the wild, tread cautiously and premeditate my movements in life.
Do not ever mistake my kindness for weakness.
For I carry more anger and more rage within me than imaginable.
Revenge is a sweet taste to me.
And violence consumes me to the core.
Another demon I so thoroughly enjoy playing with.
What makes that interesting, is the fact that I, unlike others, have no fear of repercussions.
As an alpha, I have no fear.
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