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I sit here and realize that summer is fast ending and fall approaches. How the time has flown. 3 days more and it would have been 2 years. How things end so quickly. I've been seeing my doctor...my own personal doctor and by that I mean I have found out who I am, who I was and who I am to become. The doctor lives within me, helping me see the path behind me and the one before me. But, after seeing him I'm still shattered, still broken, still left with a feeling I can't put my finger on. I'm to meet with him again soon. Joy.



He told me I should right down any changes in my life here. So, here goes. Something interesting has happened...something I didn't foresee. You ever meet someone that catches you off guard with who they are? This has happened to me. A surprise, and for the first time in a long time...a pleasant one. A smart and beautiful person. One I can carry on a conversation with about life, dance, theatre, art, music and all the above that are important to mankind. But, I feel I have made an error with this person. You see, I feel bad that I may have rushed things, that I may have made them uncomfortable. They say I haven't, but I feel slightly ashamed at myself. I care deeply for this person and I hate that I forgot that first and foremost, they are my friend. A dear friend. I've only known them for a short time but still, the feeling is there.



Do you believe in fate? I don't know who I'm asking, but do you? Sometimes the stars line up randomly or by some great design and place people in our lives that will change us. I haven't felt this in a long time. But now, I feel it and know it to be real. I can't place it. And I wont try to place it. But something is happening here, something big in my life. Everything that has happened recently has been a step up to something great. Something special. But what is it? I know this person will give me something special, something I can use. And I hope to do the same for them.



I guess I feel at a crossroads. I feel full, yet empty. Mmmm...I can't wait to speak to them again. So much fun to talk to them.



Until next time, see you around.

Spenser.