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I have lied to my self for so long. Trying to forget the truth. But the truth is , the cancer has gotten worse.

It is time that I admit to myself. That there is not always a happy ending. The sad truth is that many people have cancer, But not everyone knows.

It saddens me most of all when it is a child that has to battle it. I lived my life so it does not bother me that much. Do not get me wrong that is not the way that I want to die. But if it is then so be it.

I found out that I had it in 1999. Well that fills like a life time ago. But there it is. My mom is not handleing it very well.

She does not want to admit to her self the truth.

I worry what will happen to her when I die. It scares me to think of her being alone with someone who will not give her the care that she needs. I wish that I could have money to leave to her.

If I could do something to make her life easier and better then it would not bother me so much.

If I could only figure out what to do for her.

That would make me fill much better, it would took some of my worries away.