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BABY UPDATE IV
16:27 Apr 30 2006
Times Read: 593
So we had another doc's appointment and it seems baby as dropped quite a bit. Sitting very low in the birthing position. The heartbeat has dropped to around 150-160. We have 5 weeks or so to go and everything is good and normal. Can't wait to meet him / her.
Until next time...
"All Around Me
04:15 Apr 27 2006
Times Read: 595
All Around Me- Flyleaf
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
I'M SO SICK
04:26 Apr 25 2006
Times Read: 608
"I'm So Sick"
I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break
I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears
I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now
Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound
You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick
I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick
You are - Pearl Jam
23:50 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 618
"You Are"
This broken wheel is coming undone
And the roads exploding
But you're keeping me strong
Rolling along with you,...
Love is a tower
And you're the key
Leading me higher
When you let me in
Keeping us close,... so close
On down the line
Sometimes I burn like a dot on the sun
With no one knowing
But you're keeping me strong
Rolling along with you
You are a tower of
Strength to me
The darkening hour
Sees light again
Ooh wah, ooh wah, you are...
Love is a tower
Of strength to me
I am the shoreline
But you're the sea
You are.
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"Doesn't Remind Me" - Audioslave
I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget
I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I ilke hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need
Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So descretely
We won't look back
[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need
I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
If it doesn't remind me of anything
Skalds & Shadows.
23:47 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 622
Skalds & Shadows - Blind Guardian
Would you believe in a night like this
A night like this, when visions come true
Would you believe in a tale like this
A lay of bliss, a praise in the old lore
Come to the blazing fire and
See me in the shadows
See me in the shadows
Songs I will sing
Of runes and rings
Just hand me my harp
This night turns into myth
Nothing seems real
But you soon will feel
The world we live in is another skald
Dream in the shadows
Dream in the shadows
Do you believe there is sense in it
Is it true for myth
There one in my ryhmes
Nobody knows the meaning behind
The weaver's line
Well nobody else but the Nords can
See through the blazing fires of time and
All things will procede as the child of the hallowed
We'll speak to you now
See me in the shadows
See me in the shadows
Songs I will sing of tribes and kings
The carrion bird and the hall of the slain
Nothing seems real
You soon will feel
The world we live in is another skalds
Dream in the shadows
Dream in the shadows
Do not fear for my reason
There's nothing to hide
How bitter your treason
How bitter the lie
Remember the runes and remember the light
All I ever want is to be at your side
We'll gladden the raven now I will
Run through the blazing fires
That's my choice
Cause things shall procede as foreseen
Harvest Of Sorrow
23:41 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 624
I used to have these lyrics on my profile, I absolutely love this song.
Harvest Of Sorrow - Blind Guardian
She is gone
Leaves are falling down
The tear maiden will not return
The seal of oblivion is broken
And a pure love's been turned into sin
At the dawn of our living time
Hope may cover all cries
Truth lurks hidden in the shadows
Dreams might be filled with lies
Soon there will be light
Pain remains inside
Suddenly it seemed so clear
All the blindness was taken away
She closed her eyes
And she called out my name
She was never ever seen again
[Chorus]
Harvest of Sorrow
Your seed is grown
In a frozen world full of cries
When the ray of life shrinks
Shall cold winter nights begin
She is gone
And I fall from grace
No healing charm covers my wounds
Fooled's the dawn
And so am I
Fooled by life and a bitter doom
To bring you the end of the day
At the dawn of our living time
Hope it soon will pass by
Facing a darkness
I stand alone
[Chorus]
Harvest of Sorrow
Your seed is grown
In a frozen world full of cries
When the ray of life shrinks
Shall cold winter nights begin
GARDEN by Pearl Jam
23:34 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 626
"Garden"
the direction of the eye
so misleading
the defection of the soul
nauseously quick
I don't question
our existence
I just question
our modern needs
I will walk...with my hands bound
I will walk...with my face blood
I will walk...with my shadow flag
into your garden
garden of stone
after all is done
we're still alone
I won't be taken
yet I'll go...
I will walk...with my hands bound
I will walk...with my face blood
I will walk...with my shadow flag
into your garden
garden of stone
I don't show...
I don't share...
I don't need
what you have to give...
BLACK
11:26 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 633
Black
Hey...oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn
Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything?
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
I take a walk outside
I’m surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I’m spinning, oh, I’m spinning
How quick the sun can, drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything (note the lack of question mark)
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I’ll ever be...yeah...
Uh huh...uh huh...ooh...
I know someday you’ll have a beautiful life, I know you’ll be a star
In somebody else’s sky, but why
Why, why can’t it be, why can’t it be mine
We, we belong, we belong together....together...
We, we belong, we belong together..........
SEX TYPE THING...
11:20 Apr 23 2006
Times Read: 635
SEX TYPE THING...
I am, I am, I am
I said I wanna get next to you
I said I gonna get close to you
You wouldn’t want me have to hurt you too, hurt you too?
I ain’t, I ain’t, I ain’t
A buyin’ into your apathy
I’m gonna learn ya my philosophy
You wanna know about atrocity, atrocity?
I know you want what’s on my mind
I know you like what’s on my mind
I know it eats you up inside
I know, you know, you know, you know
I am a man, a man
I’ll give ya somethin’ that ya won’t forget
I said ya shouldn’t have worn that dress
I said ya shouldn’t have worn that dress
I know you want what’s on my mind
I know you like what’s on my mind
I know it eats you up inside
I know, you know, you know, you know
Here I come, I come, I come
I am, I am, I am
I said I wanna get next to you
I said I gonna get close to you
You wouldn’t want me have to hurt you too, hurt you too?
I know you want what’s on my mind
I know you like what’s on my mind
I know it eats you up inside
I know, you know, you know, you know
I know you want what’s on my mind
I know you like what’s on my mind
I know it eats you up inside
I know, you know, you know, you know
Here I come, I come, I come
Here I come, I come, I come
A new Addition...a Cat!!!06:46 Apr 22 2006
Times Read: 644
Not only do I...er we, thats better....Not only do *WE* have a baby coming now I have a cat, not a kitty but a cat. See the thing is, my father HATED this cat so there was a choice, Dad did some Hawaiian ritual thing to it and ate it or we took it. So under extreme pressure I took this furball and now the damn thing won't come out form under the bed. Ya great pet Haley!!! It's name was Freedom, nice name (doornob brother named it) So it has been renamed Nala, the (Lion King) Simba's girlfriend. Ya so anyway I'm done talking about this newly aquired feline.
Until next time.........
NUTSHELL, By Alice in Chains00:31 Apr 21 2006
Times Read: 646
We chase misprinted lies
We face the path of time
And yet I fight
And yet I fight
This battle all alone
No one to cry to
No place to call home
Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...
My gift of self is raped
My privacy is raked
And yet I find
And yet I find
Repeating in my head
If I can’t be my own
I’d feel better dead
Oooh...oooh...
Oooh...oooh...
Easter....A reflection and a Lesson20:33 Apr 16 2006
Times Read: 654
The Traditions of Easter
As with almost all "Christian" holidays, Easter has been secularized and commercialized. The dichotomous nature of Easter and its symbols, however, is not necessarily a modern fabrication.
Since its conception as a holy celebration in the second century, Easter has had its non-religious side. In fact, Easter was originally a pagan festival.
The ancient Saxons celebrated the return of spring with an uproarious festival commemorating their goddess of offspring and of springtime, Eastre. When the second-century Christian missionaries encountered the tribes of the north with their pagan celebrations, they attempted to convert them to Christianity. They did so, however, in a clandestine manner.
It would have been suicide for the very early Christian converts to celebrate their holy days with observances that did not coincide with celebrations that already existed. To save lives, the missionaries cleverly decided to spread their religious message slowly throughout the populations by allowing them to continue to celebrate pagan feasts, but to do so in a Christian manner.
As it happened, the pagan festival of Eastre occurred at the same time of year as the Christian observance of the Resurrection of Christ. It made sense, therefore, to alter the festival itself, to make it a Christian celebration as converts were slowly won over. The early name, Eastre, was eventually changed to its modern spelling, Easter.
The Date of Easter
Prior to A.D. 325, Easter was variously celebrated on different days of the week, including Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. In that year, the Council of Nicaea was convened by emperor Constantine. It issued the Easter Rule which states that Easter shall be celebrated on the first Sunday that occurs after the first full moon on or after the vernal equinox. However, a caveat must be introduced here. The "full moon" in the rule is the ecclesiastical full moon, which is defined as the fourteenth day of a tabular lunation, where day 1 corresponds to the ecclesiastical New Moon. It does not always occur on the same date as the astronomical full moon. The ecclesiastical "vernal equinox" is always on March 21. Therefore, Easter must be celebrated on a Sunday between the dates of March 22 and April 25.
The Lenten Season
Lent is the forty-six day period just prior to Easter Sunday. It begins on Ash Wednesday. Mardi Gras (French for "Fat Tuesday") is a celebration, sometimes called "Carnival," practiced around the world, on the Tuesday prior to Ash Wednesday. It was designed as a way to "get it all out" before the sacrifices of Lent began. New Orleans is the focal point of Mardi Gras celebrations in the U.S. Read about the religious meanings of the Lenten Season.
The Cross
The Cross is the symbol of the Crucifixion, as opposed to the Resurrection. However, at the Council of Nicaea, in A.D. 325, Constantine decreed that the Cross was the official symbol of Christianity. The Cross is not only a symbol of Easter, but it is more widely used, especially by the Catholic Church, as a year-round symbol of their faith.
The Easter Bunny
The Easter Bunny is not a modern invention. The symbol originated with the pagan festival of Eastre. The goddess, Eastre, was worshipped by the Anglo-Saxons through her earthly symbol, the rabbit.
The Germans brought the symbol of the Easter rabbit to America. It was widely ignored by other Christians until shortly after the Civil War. In fact, Easter itself was not widely celebrated in America until after that time.
The Easter Egg
As with the Easter Bunny and the holiday itself, the Easter Egg predates the Christian holiday of Easter. The exchange of eggs in the springtime is a custom that was centuries old when Easter was first celebrated by Christians.
From the earliest times, the egg was a symbol of rebirth in most cultures. Eggs were often wrapped in gold leaf or, if you were a peasant, colored brightly by boiling them with the leaves or petals of certain flowers.
Today, children hunt colored eggs and place them in Easter baskets along with the modern version of real Easter eggs -- those made of plastic or chocolate candy.
So there ya have it.
ANOTHER BABY UPDATE
06:10 Apr 13 2006
Times Read: 693
So today was April 12th my friends Andrews birthday (RIP Andy) And they day after my birthday, I HURT!!!!
The PINK is Haleys idea......
So I was up at 10 am for a doctors appointment to see just how our baby is doing. We waited for about 1/2 hour and then in we went. Haley's tummy was measured at 30 inches from breast bone to the pubic bone. The attending then felt around and told us that the baby has gone from breach to the birthing position, so yay baby!!! The ultrasound thingy to hear the baby was in her hand so, it's heart beat time. The last time it was around the 140 mark which (old wives tale) means i't's going to be a boy. Today it was 175-180, which (old wives tale) means it's a girl. Haley is carrying higher then before, so who knows. If it's a girl lie I've said before will be London, I'm stoked on that, we'll see thou. We have another appointment on the 28th of April. We just over six weeks away, the June 16th due date is measuring up with Haley's tummy size and everything looks good. This child is active, **VERY** active and loves the sound of my voice. So the next update will be the day of the 28th of April. Until then....
It is your birthday Andrew....You are missed, my friend.
00:58 Apr 13 2006
Times Read: 709
In Loving Memory of
Andrew J.W. Thow
April 12, 1981 - November 27, 2005
MAN OF THE HOUR
Tidal waves don’t beg forgiveness
Crashed and on their way
Father he enjoyed collisions
Others walked away
A snowflake falls in May
And the doors are open now
As the bells are ringing out
Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
Goodbye for now
Nature has its own religion
Gospel from the land
Father ruled by long division
Young men they pretend
Old men comprehend
And the sky breaks at dawn
Shedding light upon this town
They’ll all come 'round
Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
G’bye for now
And the road
The old man paved
The broken seams along the way
The rusted signs, left just for me
He was guiding me, love, his own way
Now the man of the hour is taking his final bow
As the curtain comes down
I feel that this is just g’bye for now.
BABY UPDATE
06:08 Apr 10 2006
Times Read: 713
Just alittle update. We have a doctors appt on Wednesday the 12th....ehem...one day after my birthday....so we will be haveing another ultrasound but we will not be finding out the sex. Earlier posts I said Haley wanted to know and I lost the battle, well seems she has had a change of heart, per say, as she now wants it to be a surprise as well. I'm happy about it cause I truely didn't wanna know. The baby is moving so much and loves the sound of my voice. It moves so much when I get home from work, it makes Haley look at me with evil eyes. LOL So everything is going great, I will update after Wednesday.
Til then...............
A Song For Haley...
17:45 Apr 02 2006
Times Read: 721
I know that life ain't always good to you.
I've seen exactly what it’s put you through
Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you
You got to thinking there was no way out
You started sinking and it pulled you down
It may be tough you've to get back up
Because you know that life ain't over yet
I'm here for you so don't forget
You can count on me
Cause’ I will carry you till you
Carry on
Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me
To hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart
Well you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone
I wonder why nobody's waiting on you
I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times
I'd love to be the light that finds you
I see a silver lining on your cloud
I'll pick you up whenever you fall down
Just take my hand and I will help you stand
Because you know that life ain't over yet
I'm here for you so don't forget
You can count on me
Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on
Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is
Gone so you can live today
Seems so long to yesterday
Keep on counting on me to carry you till you carry on
Carry on
You know that life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
You can count on me cause I will carry you till you carry on
Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till that healing is done
And every time you fall apart
You can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone
Remember life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone
Remember life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone
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