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Well there was no way to get it back, I figured that anyway. I helped her start a new page. It's even better than before, thx to Tammy! She got my baby a month of premium membership and we are having fun playing around with the new features. The good thing is it seems like Natalia is getting her levels up pretty damn fast. She should be back in the coven soon with our family where she belongs, only 2 more levels to go. *sigh* I can't wait to she get all her levels back.

Fuck fuck fuck!!! My baby's profile got deleted by mistake!! We are going crazy waiting to hear something from the big man to see wht can be done. I doubt she can get it back but maybe she can use the same name, I'm hoping so. FUCK! This sucks balls! The worst part is ALL her poetry was on here and no where else. *cries*

The other day me and my wife was hanging out at my dad's house. Well to make a long story short. Him and Natalia was outside talking and she mentioned our lifestyle and VR. He gets all excited jumping up and down screaming and shit lol. He takes both of us to his room to show us his vampire stories and books he has been studing. We go to the comp and show him VR, of course he's all pumped up when he sees the site lol. Now he wants to join and I'm sure he will be signing up soon.



I guess it runs through our blood...

Me, my wife and the kids, we all went to my wife's mother house for Christmas dinner. My wife did all the cooking and if I haven't mentioned before the woman can really throw down in the kitchen! That food was perfect. She even made homemade cheese cake, mmmm mmm. *licks lips* We all had so much fun. My mother-N-Law loves me lol that's not normal for most couples but I guess since Natalia and my mom don't get along, then me and her mom had too lol. Anyway, Natalia's mom got me a new coat and gloves for Christmas. I was so happy because I really needed a new coat and god knows what happened to my old gloves lol. Of course since I'm a big kid I had fun playing with her lil brothers and their toys. lol our babies kept trying to take their toys from them, lol they are small so they dont know any better but it was funny watching Alex take her brother's batman toy screaming BATMAN MINE MINE mine!! I'm just a lil disappointed her mom didnt cook, I mean since Natalia cooks so damn good I can imagine her mom cooking lol.



Well now I just got to have a great New Years.

I'm soooooo happy! I got everything I wanted. My baby got my MP3 player lol I know I hinted around enough for it. I even told a few of you guys I wanted a IPod or MP3 lol. Got some new name brand clothes so I can stay fly and sexy lol.



I know the kids are happy. Small kids are happy with what ever toys they get as long as it has pretty colors or make loud noise lol. My wife took the most adorable pictures of them this morning for me to upload to the comp. Of course, I put them on VR for everyone to see our beautiful boys Alex and Camaron.



I hope everyone has a great Christmas today and at least get one thing they really want lol.



Merry Christmas to all my VR family.



(I'm gonna go upload some music now lol)

Me and my wife were watching A.I. today and if you saw that movie you know how sad it was. It sparked my wife to start a conversation about how she is so in love with me that the thought of losing me scares her to the point of nightmares sometimes. She said she never tells me about them because she doesn’t like to talk about it but she decided to share one she had recently. It was a simple dream at first, we were making love and when we were done we cuddled up as usual and went to sleep. She said, when she awoke the next morning (in the dream) I didn’t wake up and she could not wake me. So she just laid there holding me for days. She said in the dream the kids were gone for the weekend so when she didn’t show to pick them up or even call people started to worry and came by our house to check on things and found her lying in the bed in shock with my dead body.



Of course, when she was telling me this dream she was in tears and so was I. The thing that made me really cry is that I have health problems that could stop my heart in my sleep and I always fear this will happen one day. I don’t talk about it with my wife and I didn’t even say anything after she told me the dream. It’s one of my biggest fears that I’m not going to live past 35 or even see 35. It hurts so much to think of dying and leaving my wife alone and hurting. When she was telling me how the dream made her feel and how much she loves me and needs me, I could see everything in her eyes, all of what she was saying and the feelings her eyes were expressing. I got a glimpse of how deeply she is in love with me.



I don’t want to be without her, ever. I need her just as much as she needs me. When she talks about how cancer runs deep in her family and problems her mother has. She worries it will happen to her and that she will end up very sick or dying, I feel the same way she feels, when I speak of not living past 35, when she says things like that. I wonder if she realizes it has the same effects on me when she talks that way. I fear losing her and trying to live my life without her just as well, and I also have nightmares of losing her too. I’m sure a lot of people that are deeply in love go through this also.

I had a great day today except for when I and my wife almost got caught doing the nasty lol. We were really going at it too, damn that would have been bad. My mom left early this morning, I thought she had gone to work but I was wrong. Me and Natalia woke up and played around on VR for a bit than ate breakfast. I still felt a bit sleepy because I woke up a lot earlier than she did, so I decided to go lay down in the bed for a bit. Natalia eventually came in the room with me and jump on me like she was in heat lol. Well, after her kissing, grabbing, and touching all over me I was wide awake and one thing lead to another. At the end of the amazing sex we were lying there in heaven then suddenly we heard keys going into the locks of the apartment door!! Man, we were so tired and drained but we both got energy at that moment lmao, we jumped up so fast. I grabbed the pants off the floor and ran into the bathroom and realized I had grabbed the wrong pair of pants, I had Natalia’s pants lmao. So I looked out the door to see where Natalia was lol she was hiding behind the bedroom door still naked (genius right), I’m like what the fuck are you doing get in here (whispering). She runs in the bathroom with my pants (thank god). We quickly get dressed and I come out to see my mom standing in the dinning room. I’m not sure but I think she saw Natalia’s naked ass running to the bathroom but she didn’t say anything. Lol She did give me a evil dirty look, maybe she just felt something was going on, I don't know. My mom went into the kitchen grabbed some lunch and left back out to go to work a half day. After we got our hearts to calm down, the rest of the day was great.

Well I feel good now. I just helped a friend get reunited with her long lost love. I made her join VR and she found him on here. They are talking about getting married and making babies! I'm so happy for her, she deserves some good fortune! I will be in the front row at the wedding. She better make sure a get a big slice of cake, that's all I ask for lol.

This is like the third night I can't sleep. I say goodnight to everyone and I lay down and boom right back up again like a hour or two later. Sometimes I don't even fall asleep. I don't know what's going on with me. I wonder why is this happening...



When I finally do get a bit of sleep I'm having horrible nightmares and of course I wake back up. Maybe It's just a phase. I even thought about going to the store and buying a bottle of night quill lol.



I think I kind of know what's wrong, stress as always. I keep worrying about moving, and when it's going to happen. I guess that's in the hands of fate it seems. Seem like every time it's close to happening something goes wrong or fuck up. Sometimes I feel like maybe I'm not meant to go anywhere or do anything. I feel like giving up and quitting! Shit, whatever happens, happen, fuck it.

Seem like my mom wants to go back into her old habits of putting me down and trying to embarrass me. I almost felt depressed but I had to fight it. No way am I going back into that shit again. Last time I went through depression was of course at my grandfather’s house and it didn’t only affect me but it affected my wife and friends too. No one wanted to see me that way and I won’t let them see me like that again.

My state goes to court today over the same sex marriage issue. Of course, this is very important to me because me and my wife look forward to being legally married and having the same benefits and rights as everyone else. Frankly I don't see the big deal as to why it's not accepted.



For example: If my wife was to die I could be denied access to her simply because the hospital will say I’m not family or a legal spouse. The simple thought of that day coming and me being turned away from being by her side in her last moments, brings tears to my eyes. On a legal note I also would be denied any rights to make decisions far as medical or funeral and all things that follow.

Everyone and their momma is on this site and all my friends made me feel like a loser for not having a page there. So I just started one and it’s pretty cool so far I ran into a few long lost friends. I still feel more at home here.

I'm back and better than ever babies!!! I finnally got a new computer with blazing fast internet and I'm back to my VR family...Which I missed sooooo much!



Of course, my wife will also be joining the fun and love again. Yeah...I'm stuck sharing the comp again lol but it's cool cause she missed all our friends and family here as much as I did.



Damn I can't wait to catch up with my friends and find out what I missed, all good news I hope!