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Today...



I was cleaning my room. And i was going through my nightstand drawer looking for garbage and i found some sharp nail clippers(Not the nail clippers that you use for you toes, the ones that are pointy at the end and shape your finger nails.) And i just looked at it, took it in my hand and just looked at it. Then all of a sudden, i look at my wrist and its all red and irritated with cuts on it.



After that, i think something(or someone) might be doing something to me. Cause i don't remember cutting AT ALL!



Im afraid...but i wish i wasn't.

Cause fear kills me on the inside. I wish Fear could be taken out of me...somehow.



‡Lucifers Angel‡

I hate being so sensitive and fragile with my emotions. Its like best friends or boyfriends(yea right) call you something hurtful or hurt you in some way and don't say sorry... i breakdown.



Go ahead tell me to go 'cut my wrist's and black my eyes' but you're to late. I already have. And i didn't feel it at all. Even though it wasn't a cut. It was more like burning symbols into my arm or ciggarette burns.



I wanna let out all of my anger and frustration, sadness, aggitation, hurt and pain...but i can't. Because the person i wanna tell...doesn't even pay attention unless i don't have my mask on. Because with that mask i look like the happy, non-caring, no feelings Danielle. But on the inside... i'm the sad, angry, depressed and hurt Danielle. And that seems to be the only time he notices. Or if ANYONE notices in that matter.



Someone Save Me From Myself.



‡Lucifers Angel‡