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Would anybody care if i just sat there and died? Would anybody bother... Bother to remember me or things ive don? What if i lied walked away from this world, never saying goodbye. Would anybody care if im not there? Watch me walk away. Become lost to my own mind, in a way.. My own slave... Just a body with no life, no more emotions, no more smiles or tears to fall. Just digging away till i cut out my heart.

She sits in her seat

Her head faceing down

She’s afraid

The teacher calls her name

She looks up shaking



Grabs her paper

Stands up front

Opens her mouth

… no sound



Stairing, searching

She feels their eyes

The eyes that search for reason

Why is she here?

What does she think she’s doing?



She tries again

Opens her mouth

And, behold sound

Stuttering and fumbling

She makes it through



Looking up meeting their eyes

They understood

The sorrow plain to see



The pain they felt was hers

She feels each and every day

She cries and

Scratches not cuts

Now they know

Just how alone she feels



She walks to her seat

Takes a breath

And says one last thing

“it’s all true”

And sits back down

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XandrogyneX
04:11 Nov 02 2011

This is very sad. I mean I like it and it's good and a lot of people can relate to this feeling but ugh I wish you didn't feel like that :(

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Why can't i just have what i want?

i don't ask for much do i?

love

reassurance

compassion

caring people around me

why can't i seem to get that even?

yeah i have cody but at the rate we go

who's to say it'll last.

yeah i love him

love him till the would ends and then sum

and i know he loves me the same

can someone please just help me see

help me see what's so wrong with this

with us being together?

I'm making he best i can manage with my life,

yeah i'm poor white trash

but you know what

at least i know what it's like to have nothing

to know how it feels to have lost something

i know what true pain feels like,

lost family and friends

so yeah look down on me

but don't pitty me

i know when to fight and when to walk

do you?

shouting

screaming

hurtful words

unwanted presents

threats

hurt feelings

wanting to shove him away

unable to believe he'd push that on me

I hate him

groundings

spankings

hateful comments

I want him dead

everyone says calm down

oh no wont happen

he wants me mad

I get mad

fight back

I HATE YOU

GO DIE

i know you said it's over

i know it should be done

but what have i ever done

to cause this sad sad end?

did i say something i shouldn't

maybe i didn't say what i should

just know that i still love you now

and you'll always be in my heart

i miss you as the day's go bye

and sometimes i even cry

but you left me crying

did you even care

leaving me hurting without you there

i know u loved me

and know you knew i did too

but why'd it have to be goodbye

so so soon?