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they suck especially when they are too high lmao

fuck it all, i wish i could end it all really i do, but there is always something that pulls me to earth... but i am really fed up i tired of playing nice for my parents(not the reason i just want to end it) but i don't know if you all know i have said it before i was going to play nice so that my parents won't have to deal with too much shit but they are taking it too far... i am in over my head and i can't take it so i give up, i am playing by my rules now

i don't know how much you think i love you but its a lot, i owe you my life... if it wasn't for you i would be dead, because no one cares about me no one loves me they say it but do they mean it, with a few exceptions no one really cares except for you i know that you care, atleast i hope i love you so much hell i don't think there is anything that you could do to make me not love you and i think that that is sad, becuase in the past i found excuses to not love someone but there is no excuse anymore i don't want to be not with you, i am not trying to scare you i am telling you ... if you read this... that i love you and i pray that you stay, but know that i respect all your decisions

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Iname
23:19 Feb 20 2009

Love you to and wow that realy hit home

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Iname
23:19 Feb 20 2009

Love you to and wow that realy hit home

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the shit in my head



i am tired like exhausted, sleep isn't coming easy for me, and with having to wake up to go to school i do not really get as much sleep as i need maybe only a couple hours sometime, i don't know what the problem is my mind just goes over the worst things in my life (they aren't awful i just don't want to think about them) and my head is always making up senerios and i can't sleep so other than sleep deprived i am sick, sore throat, headaches, stomach aches, and aches and pains i hate being sick i can't eat because i feel like i will puke... but i am hungry, and i have real bad sore throat, aint being sick the worst lol no fun at all

new year new shit i guess is the way i look at only because it feels no different only difference is you are older people say its a clean slate but the things you did last year won't be forgotten by others no matter how hard you try and you can try to be different change yourself for the better but then most eventually crash and have to start over the next year so its a repeative cycle hmm but don't let my sour thinking spoil you lol there are good things about the new year................... you get to change up the year when you right it down on paper, even though for the first 3 weeks i am still writing 2008 lol ............................ oh and... the party lmao get drunk throw up dance lmao all good fun ... then after hangover damn, but i guess what is most important about the new year good or bad is that you get a year older good for me bad for my parents lol