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The love was forever but it drifted away.

He made me laugh, and it made me cry.

I haven't forgive him but i hope to someday.

my friends that love me is forever.

The promises they make are never broken.

Therefore this it the beginning not the end to this story. Its only started

for some reason i use 2think i wuz useless, i use 2 think dat i wuz nothing. I guess this all happen when i got my heart broken 4 the 1st time. Of course i thought it wuz the end of the world. For mines dat is. I thought love wuz meaningless for it doesn't have a purpose when there r pain. But i know i'm not really alone. Theres people who cares about me. my family , my friends....................... but yet there is something missing- someone i've been waiting 4 4 so long. even the love of my family and friends it still can't full up the empty spot in my heart

TIMES I WOULD WONDER WHAT LIFE HAVE IN STORE FOR ME. FOR WILL I BE ALONE OR WILL I BE IN LOVE. FOR I'M A FOOL IN JUST THINKING OF THIS. :P ITS JUST I HAVE SO MUCH ON MY MIND IT DRIVE ME CRAZY. I JUST THERE R THINGS I STILL NEED 2 LEARN. FOR I 2 STILL SEARCHES FOR MY HEART. FOR I 2 STILL SEARCHES FOR MY PURPOSE

LET JUST SAY 2 DAY IS GOING 2 B ONE OF THOSE "SURPRISE OR DIE' THING. MEANING IF I'M GOING 2 HAVE A GREAT DAY WITH A SMILE ^_^. OR ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHEN I SAY WIT HELL 2 EVERYONE, OR EVERYTHING.- WHEN I FEEL LIKE BURN THE WORLD.- WARNING DARK MOMENT AKA WISHES NOT 2 KILL ANYONE JUST DAY DREAM ABOUT IT ..LOL

BUT COME ON U CAN'T BLAME ME. I'M NICE, LOVE 2 HELP OTHERS. BUT WHEN I NEED HELP THERES NO ONE. BUT WHEN I HELP OTHERS WIT HOMEWORK I FEEL USE- NOT A DAMN THANK YOU OR SOMETHING. OH........ THANKS LOVELESS I'LL GIVE U 2 OR 3 DAMN DOLLARS 4 WASTING UR TIME ON DEAR OH ME.......

got my heart broken for the one i once loved. Lost and lonely. Soon after i gave up on love- always hated it. I turn my back on love cuz i wish 2 never be hurt again. In so much pain. Heart so grow cold, hated everything about the world and myself.

GAVE UP ON EVERYTHING, AND EVERYONE. BUT SEARCHES FOR THE PIECES IF MY HEART..............

i hate the thought of being along. Always did. But the thing about even if i have friends and family, but yet i still feel alone. Never didn't understand wat i truly want. There something among the world i'm still searching for, something i want.4 is it love, or 4 is it much more. is it a person ir much more. for i have so much 2 understand but have little time. i always hated to cry, cuz once i cry i hate myself for wat made me cry. the things in my mind is 2 overwhelming 2 understand. 4 i'm different, odd really. my personality is different from the people i know. once u get in my mind u'll b lost - so 2 speak. confuse, sad or more.

have u ever had the feeling dat someone is watching u... ever move u make, watching every little thing u do. believe it doesn't really bother me at all. i kinda think its cool, don't really mind it really. but as long they don't watch me take a shower or follow me home, other than dat i'm cool wit it. any comment on wat u think, anything u say i'm cool wit it. by all means ^_^

i once thought i wuz nothing, meaningless- but yet i still feel dat way. For i know i could help other but can't even help myself. I once lost my purpose in wat i've been searching 4. as time fly past me, nothing change. still waiting for something, but is it just someone instead. Can't cry, can't really understand my life. some just thing i'm young and don't understand the meaning of love and their right.. love is the most questionable thing in my mind. Been in love, had my heart broken- same old thing over, and over. so should i give up? by now is it time 2 give up?

i guess i am confuse. i haven't felt so lost and lonely in my life.. i guess things happen for a reason. I can't even cry , pathetic huh. i guess so

for the past few day i been wondering about what i want to do with my life, and what i really want. The question which lies in my mind just confuse me with life itself. always walking with a smile on my face and music in my head. And sadness in my eyes. i missed the moment when i felt full alive, free, happy, and loved by all. You mite think that no one is alone but not knowing what they really feeling inside is a different person. The people you around who always happy, some times deep down they really are sad, and lonely

Thinking thing through,or push everything aside and listen 2 your heart. The question that derail in me. "let everything go, clear your mind". the thing about it the thoughts in my head tells me one thing. The time when my heart speak is another story it tells.. Be free and let your heart speak, this time of year not everyone wants to hear which lies in my heart- you can say they don't care really. In need for help, in need to think things through.. Need of my guardian angel... Need is you

have you ever had a person you give your life to?have you ever love someone to the point you would give them the world if you could? Have you ever had your heart broken by a person you cared for? I did, everything just happen so fast. Tears rushed down my face, hatred crawled in my mind. He broke my heart for no reason. Talking about depress, all i could do was put a fake smile on my face and said okay.. I walked aways so my friends wouldn't see me cry.. In front of everyone he broke up with me... Was i embarrass- no. I just couldn't handle it.. I gave him my life, my heart, everything.. i guess i just trusted people tp easily.. they always said i was to nice.. but after all deep down only that moment when my heart got broken flashes in my dreams, reminding that love can also have pain

yeah its mothers day...Bad thing is that my mom has work... Poor Dracula works so hard everyday.... Other than my moms big day, i'm have to stay home and take care of everyone even tho i'm the second oldest, and they work me half to death.. At least i would have something to do besides always looking bored... ^_^ so much of a good day...............

the sadness i felt seem like forever.. not being able to hear my friends and family is what hurts me inside.. Can't cry, never.. always being push aside like a book with no story.. for I'm truly alone in this world.. No one to hold me in their arms and tell me they are here for me always.. no one i can trust.. No one who cares.. I hidden my true feeling from the world and everyone in it, for they don't understand.. truly feeling what i feel is understanding than me telling.. for i'm lost in the sight of this empty world.. for the thought of living and the thought of seeing everyone else happy gives me a reason to fake smile

lately i have been myself..hiding my try feeling, don't even know how i really feel. confuse.. Pathetic, odd, i guess.. Others use to say i'm weird, ugly, stupid, and more.. Never really care what others say about me any more.. My true friends.. Now thats a different story- always calling beautiful, think i'm a wonder person. I'm to have such wonder friends to the very end

i have to realize what i really want. Not looking within your eyes have me wonder is you telling me the trust or lie. My friends i give my life to tell me one thing and you tell me another. I would wonder who to believe. With all this i end up confuse. Lie or truth. what to do if i lose you, what will happen if i lose my friend i trust with my life. i don't want my heart to be broken again.. so what do i do.