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i use 2 never care wat others think of me.

i use 2 tell myself dat itz just words it doesn't mean anything.

but when it comes 2 the person u like and had deep feelings 4 u , now dats a different story.

okay when i wuz young like 6 or something i never did understand y everyone had boyfriends instead of me. at first i thought it wuz nothing until this person i had a crush on. PUPPY LOVE okay we talked on the phones-after dat a month later rite when i had the courage 2 talk 2 him and tell him i like him- he told his friends i wuz ugly, and he doesn't want me around him. okay my heart wuz broken few laters after dat i didn't care. but when a family member u care about call u ugly and u look up 2 dat person. now dats the end

Let your heart stop beating as time runs past you. Tears which soon frezze. For the sadnees you try so haed to hide, soon grows into pain. All your cries which never heard, for you alone inside wishing to be free. For you only a child wanted to be loved and hold. hoping to restart your life but as every step you take your past always find you. look past the hour glass among the light and the dark. Reach out your hands toward me for you never alone, you always will be protected by me. when i'm around no one hurt you again. not now not ever

I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU.

fear of losing my true love

fear of losing my family and friends

without them i wouldn't have a purpose in the world.

i would be helpless without them by my side.

without them i wouldn't want 2 life

i wouldn't kno wat 2 do without them. If i ever lose them i wouldn't b living anymore. Maybe dead, or living life a lone, or much more. i love them with my whole being. I glad 4 having them by my side. they the only ones who matter in my life and i wouldn't have it any other way

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Syllvein
14:09 Jun 17 2008

Perfect. Just Perrrrrfect. I havvvve the same fearssssssss.

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wishing someone 2 heal my broken heart. i've been crying 4 so long. i 4got when it truly mean 2 be happy. okay there r times when i'm happy but not 4 long cuz i either missin someone or something. or searching 4 a answer 2 a ? i still haven't solve.love is so confusin 2 me in so many way. when i feel love i would wish it 2 last a life time. Love the one i hold dear 2 me 4 the rest of my life. but when its over- i hated the thought of love again cuz my love never last . is it me or something else.

days like this i wonder y i feel sad. between a heartache ir depress. now lately i feel like i missing something important in my life. Like i'm searching 4 something, like a answer so a ? i have yet 2 solve. Is it love? or iz it much more? i wish not 2 get hurt again but i'm willing 2 try love again. Can i trust him-i hope.

Am i really in love- yes

but i wish not 2 be broken again. my head will kill me all day until i figure it out. i can't think,i can't sleep, sometimes it feels like i can't breath. i don't understand y. i'm not goin crazy i kno dat but i'm confuse. about a lot of things.

Through my life so far. i met new friend and much more.

u can say they wonderful, but they great people and they play a great role in my life. i can say without them i wouldn't b able 2 feel life and love again. without them i would been lonely 4 the rest of my life in this confusing world. U can say dat i'm helpless without.. so i wish 2 tell them all thank u and they mean the world 2 me. . there a lot 4 me 2 learn about true love and happiness but i know i'm not alone anymore. dat i have others who care.

*i'm not crying lol*

but i care about each of them, i know there will b sometimes when i kno dat i will b sad again but i'm happy i dat i have someone 2 talk 2 . -love u guys ^_^

every step i take deep down i'm still sad.- the ? iz y

Iz it becuz i'm missing something important in my life, or much more than dat.

i guess i'll never understand love. Love which is the greats gift anyone could ever have. but yet i'm happy.

I don't know maybe itz becuz i'm not feeling 2 good right now. maybe becuz i can never have a good sleep witout worrying or thinking about everything 2 much. so many thing i look forward 2. but i just really want is a good day, love, to finally smile witout being sad. well like they say things happen 4 a reason and itz a reason 4 me bing like this all the time but it can change

u can say dat i'm finally in a good mood 2 day. I haven't like this in a long time 2 tell the true.. Finally have someone dat is important in my life who cares 4 me. Now dats a exciting news. u can say i'm hopeless witout him lol. he plays a great role in my life and i can't change dat 4 the world. u can say i'm happy, dat i'm in love, or just having one of those happy moment dat i would want 2 last a life time. ^_^ but it wouldn't change 4 the world. *_^ just the main ? is, " is this a dream?"Is this really happening? but i don't know y i feel like crying when i can't hear his voice.- pathetic am I ?

Temped to run away from my ever lasting sadness.

The hate, the sorrow , and the pain which was left to me. Can't cry in which made it harder for me to breath. The hate which crawl below my separated heart. I for tell this moment from the start. The moment i thought i known the true meaning of love. The long lasting sorrow change the moment it begun. The end of my happiness. The end of my thoughts of true love. CRUSH, BURN,SCATTER across the world. Like nothing was left for me. Dreaming-no. Dreams fallen, hope fallen, everything, Everything just faded. This i know it couldn't be help nor saved. To the point it seems like it was the very end for me. Can't move on. Can't move a step forward, only a step back

I fear to fall in love with someone

not knowing will i get my heart broken again

over and over i would tell myself to never give up on love

but love sometimes gives up on me.

I always hated to cry because it make a weak inside.

It make me hate myself cuz i would blame myself for everything dat happen.

It wuz my fault i guess.

wuz it something i say or wuz it something i done.

I wouldn't give up on love-no but i do feel loveless.

At one time i didn't had a heart.

One time ago i gave up on love for dat the world soon gave up on me.

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juanaldamuy
19:39 Jun 02 2008

Love is never easy and can't be mastered. Each of us are capable of love, but in different ways. You just haven't figured out your way and applying it to others that you love.

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