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Surrounded by the things I do

There are things I don't realize

I'm all hurt because of you

Took advantage of me, paralyzed



Silence is all around me

Even silence has a sound

It has a ring that you can't see

Silence is very loud, it wants to be head not found



As I try following it

You break the quietness

Of my peace

Even in the crowd I cant hear a thing but ringing





Do you see the shattered

Pieces of my life?

The shattered glass

I try to hide?



You've done that

Your the one to blame

You will never change

Cause you think this is all a game



breaking my silence

Don't try to understand me

You'd only get confussed

Don't try to comforte me out of fear

You'd only get accused, for hurting me more



Why do I keep my distence you ask?

I just can't bare the pain

Why do I keep my secrets you ask?

I just want to feel the same...

Can you see the mask I'm wearing?

Can you tell why I hide my face from the world?

Its because you are not careing

Its because you said my face makes you hurl



Thoug you never looked at me

Why can't you ever see

What I could really do

Who are you to judge, who are you?



Trying to catch your eye now

After we avoided paths somehow

Sitting on therb, a beer bottle in your hand

Looking at you now is just so pittifuly sad



In the past

I'm slipping on a dress

On my way

To the Masqurde



I hide behind my mask

At the Maquerad as if made ofglass

Gliding frm place to place

Everon at aw from my grace



Since that very day on th dance floor

When you came up to me asking for a dance

I didn't know you'd make my heart soe

So now, vefor I knew it, we took our stance



Dancing around and around

I still need to be found

I wished I wouldhave seen the man that

Went throughthe door, watching me, as he sat



Oh, how did I not see this comeing

Who would have known by danceing

Would just only destroy me

But you didn't stop me from my mistakem



I wished you had saved me

But then I wouldn't know how to save myself

I wished you could have seen the real me

But then I wouldn't know how I would break somehow



Can you see this mask I'm wearing?

Can you tell why hide my face from the world?

Its because your not caring

Its because said my face mkes your hurl



But know this: Beind this mask

Laysa secret

Behind these glass

eyes, you should fear it...

Why do you look at me differently?

Why do you ignore me everyday?

Are you to scared to look me in the eye?

Are you to selfish that you turn around and sigh?



Why? why are you doing this, why?

I just don't get it

I just don't know why you sigh

How did you come up with this fit?



This is not like you

Because your too good to be true

Stareing at you, you don't see

My Curiosity

Why should I care?

I screa tragady

But whats there to hear

I'm withdrawn into fantacy



Where were you when I was scared?

Off with new friends?

I gave my trust as much trust I dared

When was the last time we will see each other again?



I'm not some nobody

To fill up your void next to you

What? yo deny I'm sombody?

Somebody in your view?



I get this feeling, all lies

I get this look, "who are you?'"

What is going threw your mind?

Don't you know me inside?



I gave it all to you

All of myself

But have you forgoten?

Who it is your hurting?



You've taken too much of me

What is left but fragil

me, bittersweet peices

I just want to, away mindfulless

Lie and say you love me

Lie ansay you want me to stay

Don't tell the truth (go away)

Don't tell me the truth (I don't care)



Because the lies are easier to take

But show me that you care

Enough to lie, give a smile thats fake

Beacuse the truth I can't bare



Lie to me saying its tru

Dont tell me the truth that you dont lie

I want to hear you have a flu

You can't come and play, sigh



The least you could do

Is lie to my unfeeling cold heart

Because I need caring words from you

To make my hearts trun down with a dart

The taste of your lips, I savor

the memory lingers

with an unnamed flavor

Makes me shiver



The look of your eyes, an abyss

I intently stare

those dark eyes that I miss

as I remember



Your smile, so formidable

makes me melt

makes me tremble

with the love I felt



Your voice, the way you use to grunt

Made me laugh when I felt down

Your crazy stunts

burn me inside and out



Your skin, so incredulously

the memory of your arms

Fit around me

As I cry, when you saw my scars



The way that your cared

Always conserned

Made me feel so, so scared

It was unreal, so absured



And now that your gone

I feels so, so alone

As I listen to our song

I sit here, frozen like stone



When you left, I cried

I didnt get to say

I loved you so much, I'd die

That I'm afraid



The picture of you and me

It was so long ago

an unwanted memory

You, dead or alive, I'll never know...



A tribute to my beloved......Jad

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LordDrarnus
00:44 Apr 21 2010

This one is amazing, i enjoyed reading it alot.

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Yu wouldn't understnd

I don't want you to undrstand

I've gone insane

I just want someone to blame



Pounding in my head

Dreaming of the dead

Screaming for ParaDIEce

Finding away out of all these lies



Oh black hole

Blacker then a crow

Looking at me, eyes black as coals

Its cry so out of control



Look at me, heads facing down

Avoiding al eyecontack, avoding all sound

All sound of others misery

But stops at the crows screeching



I stare riht at it, it stares back

It grows and grows, its my height by back

Its all black and dark, my eyes grow wide, frightened of what I see

Because I realiz I'm staring right back at me!!



It feels what I feel, looks the way I do

Seen what I seen, Knows what I kow

I am it and it is me

We're both going crazy!!



We'r drowning in darkened earth

Drowning drowning sinking us sown

Being sucked in like geting sucked out at birth

Screaming our way down screaming without a sound



Pounding in my head

Dreaming of the dead

Screaming for ParaDIEce

Finding away out of all these lies



As I stare right there terrifid

I stand right there mezmerized

In my reflection I crecognize

My Demize



OOh blck hole

Blacker than a crow

Looking at me, eyes black as coal

its cry, so out of control



I stare right at it, it stares right back

It grows and grwos, its my height by back

Its all black and dark, my eyes grow wide, frightened of what I see

Because I realize I'm stareing right back at me!!

No one would mis me, I'd be fine

I wont b able to take up everyone's time

Hurting, hurting

My heart thumps har, deeply, bleeding



I can't follow through with anything

I can't, I can't, its is insane

I'm becoming deppressed again, who's to blame?



You don't kow how it pains me

To keep my self control in check

I' affraid of my own self in every degre

Making sure my anger and feelings are corrected



They don'tunderstand

I want to drive this pen

Into someones head

Stabe repeatedly over and over until they're dead



Smashing my chair into the TV

Swing it around into the wall, screaming

Swing it across my bookshelf, its all crap

Swing it throwing smashing my window into shards of glass



But I wont, I can't

I keep my slefin check

But how long will it last?