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8 years.....8 goddamn years! Thats how long ive wasted on a relationship that i now know is one way! I have been a live-in slave to my wonderfull girllfriend and her darling daughter, giving up everything for them. I turned my back on friends and family and moved hundreds of miles away....for nothing.



And now that i get diagnosed with a disability, i think shes gonna support me....but insted of thinking about how this is affecing me and trying to help me pull myself up, she thinks about how many benifits i can claim and how much money she can get! Not how the hell im gonna get back into work like i am....she just wants to keep me her little slave, too sick to work but fine to do housework.



Well in two weeks i may be spending the winter on the streets of cardiff with just my dog and the clothes on my back.....oh fun.

I know people have things worse off then me, its what i tell myself when my muscles hurt too much to walk or my fingers curl inwards.....but my life still feels damn hard to me.



You would think getting diagnosed with MS on my 29th birthday would be the worst thing...but no...living with my soon to be ex girlfriend and her bratty teenage daughter is worse. Her daughter is the reason i've attempted suicide several times.



My girlfriend claims she wants to support me with my MS and my mental conditions and yet she still allows her daughter to wind me up, claiming that its me who overreacts to nothing. Its not nothing, her daughter winds me up!!!!

Its everything from catty little smart assed comments when im not even talking to her, to ignoreing what i ask her to do, to being cheeky and disrespectful all the way to blantently agrovating me infront of her mother.



Well i only have to put up with all this till next summer, then im leaving her. Unfortunatly, since the two people who offered me a place to stay and no one else i talk to want me staying with them. Me and my trusty dog, princess, will be going back to wales and sleeping on the streets....



...so my life has offically hit rock bottom.