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Well it is getting close to the 4th of July and my little brothers birthday on the 1st of July, which means a nice 4 hour drive and a 2 week visit with my father step mom and big sister. Any other time i would be excited, but for some reason i'm not.... I have all the reason to be, my little brother turns 3, i get to see family and now i will have twin brother and sister to see. But maybe thats the problem.....My current little brother doesn't even know me, why should i be excited for the twins to cry every time i go to touch them. A solvable dilemma I know, move up there like my sister.....sadly tho its not that easy with the twins coming there is no place for this one. tho my father would probably love it. and there are more job opportunities but it sadly is just not an option.



But yeah any way i will possibly be heading for new york wednsday, i will be on less for a goot to weeks to possibly a month and a half.





later taters.

did you ever have a day where nothing seems to go right, nothing at all? yeah well mine hasn't gone right since October 2009.....i don't tend to do this so yeah, be nice please.



Losing the only income i had in October was one of the worst things to happen to me. I lost my self....i hate having to depend on the people around me to take care of me. i had myself a taken care of until that happen and then i had to depend on my father to pay my rent....for several months and it broke my heart. i applied for jobs like you wouldn't believe but soon came the problem that it would have to be a job that was in town here because i have no car nor ride. so i put my name in all the places i could. no response. a month or so past having ppl scrounge up the money to pay my rent, when my friend Poprocks brings me an app for the place she works at and tells me to fill it out. so i did. a week or so later i got a call for an interview. i was ecstatic. between my mother and i we scrounged up enough money to make it to the place of business. i thought my interview wen very well.....sadly a few days later i got a letter in the mail stating that i did not receive the job. Poprocks later informed me that it was because i had put her name down as a reference. . i died that is the only way to describe how i felt. that job was my independence back and it all went out the window with one little piece of paper........ after a while of begging for help from people my aunt comes to me and asks if i would clean her house for about 30 dollars. I agree.. to me that made taking money from her worth it because i was doing something in return. But it was short lived i had something come up and i needed 100 dollars and i needed in soon. my aunt and her thing gladly loaned it too me and we worked out a pay back plan. i would still get the money for my rent but i would have to go to her house and clean 3 or 4 times a week.......cleaning a house with 4 kids under the age of 10 is no picnic.....let me tell you. not to mention did my aunts thing make more mess then the children and not bother to clean......not even lift a finger.

The cleaning for my aunt lasted a few months till all of a sudden she stopped paying and i had to fight with her to get 25 dollars for my rent (i live in a community housing for low income.) A few time it almost got me evicted because of it being late rent.When another friend moved in she promised to pay my rent. and she did, kinda. I had to had to go to a friends house for a day or so i couldn't get home. and the friend promised to pay my rent it was there on the table, my rent had to be payed by the 24th of last month in order to keep my home. when i got back on the 24th after the office had been closed for at least 2 hours i found the rent still sitting on the table where i had left it..... I lost it and cryed for hours....she come home and quickly took it to the office after i called them and left a message. This month is no better....other them my rent was paid...I hurt my head by being thrown into the side of a truck.....then a few weeks later a stone candle holder fell on my head and i had to get staples....now my god damned laptop died, and not even the amazing jordan can fix it!!! *crys* but i have a desk top that he hooked up with the internet.... but just think........the month is not over.





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xXxTCPxXx
02:17 Jun 16 2010

I dare to read, and satisfied... you and I have one thing in common... finding a job...

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jesse
16:10 Jun 16 2010

i think many of us have that problem these days, i hope things get better for u soon dani, many blessins to u

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airwitch08
18:45 Jun 16 2010

This was an insane time for everyones life, I would say. I know I have gained many things that compensate for losses or issues, I wish I could say the same for you. I love you sweetheart, keep working through all of this any maybe, with a little time, we can help you out and who knows? Maybe you'll have a few roomies in a little while who'll be there with ya when shit happens.....My future is as unpredictable as anyone elses lol. Just hang in there lovie, I'll be here for you all the while.

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