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L ove, The Razor Blade At My Wrist



I nsane, The Feelings Of Pain And Hate I Carry



F ucked Up, Me



E ternal, The Pain In My Soul From Judging Assholes...



Jessica Newton

Death Is Upon Me



The Air Is So Thin



Where Can I Flee



From The Evil Clown's Grin



He Stares Murderously



The Knife In His Grip



He Sways Dangerously



Then..........



SLASH!!!



Down Comes His Fist...



Jessica Newton

All My Life I've Been Hurting



People Judging Me



People Using Me



The Razor Blade Looks So Good



I Watch As The Blood Drips Down



I Begin To Feel The Dizziness



My Life... It's Drowned In Darkness



My Eyes Gloss Over And I'm Gone...



Jessica Newton

It Was Great



We Were Perfect For Each Other



But I Made A Mistake And Overreactions Occured



Now I'm Without You Again



Without Your Smile, Without Your Voice, Without Your Love



It's Only Been A Few Days But It Feels Like A Lifetime, And It Hurts



I'm Depressed And Dying Inside And Everyone Knows It



I See A Shadow And Turn, Praying It's You, But It Never Is



The Shadows Are There All The Time



Am I Imagining Them Or Are They Really There?



I Can't Tell Anymore



My Mind Is Always Far Away



My Eyes Are Always Teary



Thinking Of You



Will This Pain Ever End?



Only With You Back By My Side



But Will That Ever Be?



Never...



Jessica Newton

It's Over



I'm Lonely, I'm Cold



It's Over



You Broke Us



And Left Me Alone



Its Over



What Can I Do



I Sit, Think, And Cry



But Wait...



A Light In The Darkness



It Moves Slowly Closer



I Start Forward



Eagerly Awaiting A New Love...



Jessica Newton

Sometimes I Get So Depressed



Like Nothing On Earth Will Be Good Again



My Scars Are Proof Of My Past



Words And Pictures Engraved Into My Flesh



Never To Be Removed



But Every Once In Awhile



There Is A Light



A Light That Shines Brighter Then The Brightest Smile



A Reprieve From The Pain Comes To Recieve Me



My Life Becomes Healed



But In The Light Darkness Will Reoccur



Usually Darker Then The Last



And The Cycle Begins Again



The Pain Still Taking Me Under



Just... Slower Then Before...



Jessica Newton

My Heart Is Cold



My Eyes Are Blank



My Caring Has Come And Gone



My Body Is Nothing, Just A Shell



My GOD What Have I Done Wrong



My Every Choice Is Burying Me



I'm Six Feet Underground



My Family And Friends Can't Help Me



Only I Can Dig Myself Up And Out...



Jessica Newton

I Sit Amidst Darkness



People Walk Around But They Don't Notice



I Reach Out But Feel Only Air



Flashes Of Happy Times And Pleasure Come To My Mind



They Are Then Overtaken By Horrors That Fill My Eyes



My Piercing Scream Echos Around Me Unheard By All



All Goes Black And I'm Paralyzed



Unable To See Or Move Or Feel



But I Can Hear



Oh GOD Can I Hear



The Voices Of Loved Ones



The Voices Of Loves Lost



Voices, Ringing In My Ears



For The Rest Of Eternity



This Room Is My Hell



My Eternal Damnation...



Jessica Newton

I Hate You Today

These Feelings Sinking So Deep Inside

Pounded In Deeper And Deeper With Time

I Didn't See It At First

But Now It's So Clear

We Weren't Meant To Be

It's What I Have Always Feared

I Cry All The Time

I'm Cutting Myself

The Blood Drips Down And It Begins To Sting

My Mind Clears And I Think:

What The Hell Have You Done To Me

Your Dead To Me, I'm Obviously Dead To You

The Way That I Feel You Have No Fucking Clue

Leave Me Alone

Leave Me Here In Your Past

Forever...



Jessica Newton