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I lost my reason roughly 5 hr before this post. Hyperventilating and babbling. I was in a collision the totaled my car and I've been on the edge since. My husband held me, freaking out, for several hrs. I made him remove all the easy ways, because that's what drove me out of the bathroom, the easiest way to end my tears and pain. I'm still on the precipice. It was like three voices screaming together one angry one wailing and one watching. I don't even remember what triggered me. I'm scared.

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SedeDeSangue
13:46 Oct 27 2019

I’m sorry. *hugs* Please hang in there.

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Kraai
22:11 Oct 27 2019

I am so sorry, big hugs and lots of positive energy coming your way.

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XbluesandX
22:07 Oct 28 2019

Maybe meditation can help? I’ve learned to block out negative energy.

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It's been one yr since I committed myself. My life is better for it I got help and truly saw who my 'real' family is. My blood family fed on my miserable existence and would pour jet fuel on my instability and phycological issues. To the point I put a gun in my mouth.... today I understand better what I need to do to take care of myself. And tomorrow I'm meeting up with friends I made in the nutshack🤣 good friends who accept me wholeheartedly one doesn't know the other is coming but I thought it important and a lovely surprise. I'm driving almost 8 hrs tomorrow wish me luck.

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GypsyX
06:23 Oct 07 2019

Good luck and may the gods smile upon you

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Shores of sleep
I weep
As you drift away
Daunting day

I tribble I worry
Eyes blurry
Drifting away dreams
Ripped seams

O' shores of slumber
I wanna saw lumber


Yeah seriously I can't fucking SLEEP

I had to see the same little snot and got an apology haha apparently dude was on thin ice for his smart mouth before I cleaned his clock and taught him the time of day.

I am definitely old enough to know better today I lost my temper on a little idiot and grabbed him by the throat he called my husband a shity person and was talking to me like I was a child I know angry gets nothing done But I will not let anyone talk shit about my family I've worked to hard on making my life healthy and functional this particular idiots mommy was there and she jumped in between us and was all like he was hit in the head an injury can be overcome mankind has proved this over and over I have personally watch this boy talk shit to his mother you do not disrespect your parents like that not when they work so hard for you I'm so aggravated I can't sleep and my stomach is in knots why the fuck can't I let this go

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Baest
09:26 Oct 04 2019

you go girl! i slapped a kid before for kicking a dog.. sometimes they just need a reality check

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LiliumUnum
11:31 Oct 04 2019

Dude I get to see you this ferengi looking motherfuker again today calls for some war paint

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