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Light comes softly down upon me as i type the words that are just randomly coming to mind, and to my fingers. I haven't a clue as to what i'm typing or to who but this is a message for you.
my mind is filled with love and hope as my heart is and it may be hard to explain all of this but this is who i am, undescribable when it comes to me.
to say that some things are just easy to remember or say or think or do is just a waste of time as my mind is simply as you see so plainly right now.
I see razors.
so yes, i am merely typing what my fingers are feeling to type, even though it probably makes not a sense to anyone.
This would be a good time to ask me questions but no one is around to do so :)
therefore i will just type like this.
but anyway i have a lot of stuff going on and i see that everything is happy and wonderful and it makes me smile and want to cry with happiness as to what all has been going on i love my Miss and Sir and i dont know what i would do without them i probably wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for them so yeah i really owe them but i am also happy to be their submissive and a slave in training and wow this is one hell of a long sentence.
lalalalalalaldodododododododededededededadadadadadadada....heehee....
anway yeah so my mind is just a random mess right now and a lot of thinking like my little brother and my mother and my older brother and two assholes that are bleh and mew?
but anyway things are just fine and happy and loving and caring and is so amazing that i can find such lovely people and it is astounding with how kind they are to me as i didn't think i deserve it but surely they would not be if i didn't so i am good :)
now for me to think of my words...
Things have been going well. I need to learn more about what i do and need to do and need to focus on. i am hoping that i am always pleasing them and never dissapointing them.
i am going to focus on a lot and train and learn.
life is great right now and i am surprised but you know what? it's amazing.
anyone who wants my world to come crashing down on me i have two words for you....
FUCK YOU!
Life or destiny is like water, or, if you will, a river. it flows. and you, swimming in it, if you go against it, you will drown. you must flow with it, let it's currents lead you. a river is ever-winding, and you will not know where you will flow too. it is scary, but you must stay afloat this river until it gets the best of you. but until then, only the river determines your fate. sometimes, you can get away with being able to change route, if you are strong enough to switch currents.
your will to stay afloat will be the thing keeping you alive, and the river, though harsh, rocky, dangerous, it can also be a gentile stream where you can stop and either relive your travels, dream about what's ahead, or prepare for your next rough journey, or perhaps it is in the serenity, your sleep, in which you will finally let go of being afloat. perhaps in the peace you will choose what you will of life.
some people are lucky enough to travel to the air, away from the water, every once in a while, for a while, but never to the earth, for the earth is never within reach. never will you be able to really watch life go by and not effect other people, or your destiny.
all of this is up to you. and, sometimes, if you ended up being able to choose all the gentle currents, you are lucky. if you somehow choose all the rough ones, i am sorry. you can choose, but ultimately destiny will have it's way one way or another. you can alter it but it takes so much strength, strength most dont have.
most of my choices have been the rough river. even since my past life, when i have been in the gentle streams for so long, knew i chose this path.
but now, i have chosen a gentle path once again, and hope my next current is the same.
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