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How can you tell if your in love? do u just kno? i honestly dont know, i thought i was in love, but maybe i was wrong. i never trusted some one enough to let myself fall, the one girl i think i loved im pushing away. the reasoning behind that is really simple, im not bright, im a potthead, and my life has fell apart. i dont want to bring meghan with me. i been trying to get over her, but its rly hard. it seems impossible. i been seeing and messing around with other girls. i thought that if i messed around with enough girls id lose my feelings. ive messed around with 4 girls and still my feelings stay, actually i think they got stronger. kissing other girls just reminds me of kissing meghan being with meghan. shes always in my head. i love her, but i also hate her. shes the only person that can make me so mad i could shoot someone. she gets on my nerves alot and threatens me with killing herself or cutting. shes so messed up but i still cant stop dreaming about being with her. is that what love is? or is this just a phase?

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Eleanna
09:42 Mar 17 2010

That's a really good question. I thought i was in love once, we even had a child together I was that sure that he was the one but it didn't work out, it took a long while to get over him and im still in contact with him regarding our daughter which isnt always easy but looking back i dont think it was love or enough love between us to really make it work, i just thought at the time there was, sometimes you can feel so much for someone you think it is love but its not, hope you manage to move on if thats what you end up doing :)

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you kno every day has a new list of problems; im failing school, im losing my grip on life. what am i doin here? i really dont kno. i wish someone could just tell me mine. the only thing i seem good at, is helping ppl. i wanted to become a social worker of some type, but my grades suck. there is no possible way for me to make it, at least i dont think so. im really tryin to improve my grades but im so far behind its not a realistic goal. I really do hate my life, i kno it could be worse but that doesnt phase me much. i have not been happy for so long, i try'd drugs they hardly help anymore, i try'd to take control of my life but now it feels like my life is contolled by other factors. my depression gets worse everyday. im to the point where dieing would be the best thing in the world. i wish there was a way i could be happy. I hope i can find the reason why im here, and my purpose. id do anything to be happy again.