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I feel like I'm never going to enough for anybody or anything... there is not one thing I have not put my whole heart and soul into... and once I'm that deep and actually believing things and life will be amazing and I'm actually going to be happy... BAM!!! Everything around me and inside me gets rips to shreds.... im literally standing outside my body watching myself get ripped to pieces... and I have no idea how to put myself together. There is only one person that can and has been able to make me whole! I don't know if I'm ever going get put back together by that person again.... how can one person make you feel like your everything and the only thing... then with a blink of an eye it's all gutted from you!!!... how do you bring yourself back from that??? I'm trying to figure it out... but like before I can't fucking breath!!! I know exactly how amazing my life would be and how happy I would be and I know with everything I am that that's exactly what i want that's all I've ever wanted... and to have it so close to were I can feel, see, touch, taste and then it's gone just like that... how can I live everyday knowing I may not ever have that again. I lost it once in the past and it hurt like hell... I still never completely got over it.. but this time is completely utterly unbearable!!! I don't know how I'm going to make it thru this time!!!. I feel like I've completely died inside!...

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Doru
02:05 Feb 23 2018

You can get knocked down, and it hurts and it leaves scars. But now is the time to lean on your friends for emotional support, the friends that lean on you in their time of need. Unfortunately time is the only source that somewhat heals our heart.

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