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"Let the bodies hit the floor!"

Huh! Let your body hit the floor for making me feel this way.

One moment up, next minute down.

My life lays before you, a shattered plastic cup on the floor of a club. Walked over, stamped on i lie there looking up at you.

You dont notice how i stare, do you! How could you?

"Beautiful", huh! Thats how i should feel, but the feeling never arises. It stays hidden beneath the scars of a life that should of past long ago, but still is present.

"Love", it sounds like a joke.

All past love has been a joke, started out fireworks, exploding, ending with them burning out and dying in a cloud of smoke.

Just keep it hidden in the depths of your soul, protect it so no one can ever take it away from you.

And so as my love lays hidden, my soul protecting it fiercly, my heart lays vunerable open to attack.

But you wouldnt notice that, you just see this smile...

Sitting there singing, smiling.

You think its all fine.

But inside a fire burns,

Inside a flame is lit.



Sitting there laughing, joking.

I pretend everything is great.

But all the while, im burning.

Inside im hurting.



Im fucking hurting!

Those eyes i could drown in them,

That smile i would happily look at it forever.

But i cut, i bleed and so i die.

A life wasted, a love lost and the pain of a thousand losses felt.

I want to go home

But homes not there

Home was ten years ago

Home was when life was simple

Home was when others decided for you

Home was safe

Home was not feeling like this

Home isnt there anymore

Home died when mum started drinking

Home died when mum first cut herself

Home died when we first moved

Home died when dad left

Home died when we heard the first shouts

Home died when she first woke up bruised

Home died when we left home and said goodbye to mum forever.

With every day that passes, i feel my life slip away.

Your with me every moment , tho' i know you cannot stay.



For my heart is slowly dying, my soul, it fades away.

I gave my life to someone else now with it i must pay.



Lavenderdragon 03/02/05

My soul feels free

my fears are gone

ive seen the light

that you have shone.



My heart it sings

my eyes they shine

i will not rest

until your mine.



Lavenderdragon 02/02/05

I lie in bed just waiting, just hoping that you'll come,

but i know deep inside my heart, that you're forever gone.



The night drags on 'til morning arrives like the bitter pill i have to swallow,

again and again, i wait and wonder...

My soul is forever hollow!



Lavenderdragon 02/02/05

The light that burns inside you,

will only last so long.



One day it will flicker and die,

you'll wonder what went wrong.



But i can stop the burning

and i can stop the dying.

And i can promise you

there'll be no more crying.



Just give me your hand

and give me your soul.

Your blood i need

to make me feel whole.



One last kiss as the light goes out....



Lavenderdragon 02/02/05

Torn between two people,

your heart is rippped in two.

Your soul inside is bleeding,

you dont know what to do.



At times you want to laugh,

at times you want to cry.

But rather than choose,

you feel you'd rather die.



Torn between two people,

the decision is left to you.

You feel a life inside you,

you know what you must do.



Lavenderdragon 02/02/05