18:16 Nov 27 2013
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I'm realizing that we should be really careful about our wishes, because they might come true....
Yesterday i've been on a massage, it was some kind of opening chakras stuff and when the guy asked me what i'm expecting from it I replied that i wish I might be the real me.
Well, I got it. Before I've been going through this process quite slowly and yet peacefully. This came as a hurricane, without warning, destroying all of the bases. I feel like being closed in a house with just one window that allows me to watch out. I see banality of many of the everyday life's issues. I mean, I am glad that i have work that is not bad at all, I'm glad that people are counting on me. I may be even proud of me, knowing that I'm leading a life many would probably like to have. But I'm tired. I don't care about it at all. I'm doing things because they must be done, not because it's me to want them. I'm doing things 'cause people expect me to do them, but I'm so tired of listening to them, taking to them, even of looking at them. People....with their tiny banal problems, worrying if there are discounts in Keymart or if the black shoes fits with red bag....
As I've been walking alone through the dark empty streets, I opened my eyes and saw another world. My world. Not just the shadows in the cave. I saw the real me. Which is not a good looking girl, a lawyer from a good family. That one that might seem a one with nose in the air, a bit arrogant and a bit selfish. That one that declares that she doesn't need a man to go forward.
No. The real me, that one who's watching out of the window. The dark one, the hungy one, the different one. that one that is yet a bit scared and a bit excited, that doesnt want anything else but being what she was meant to be. That one who feels that she can't live without him by her side. Not anymore.
My love, I want you to take my hand and just be with me. I want you to caress my hair, kiss my lips and tell me that I've been so damn silly and blind denying myself. I want to stay with you every single second of the rest of our lives. I wanna wake up in your arms every morning. I want you to possess my body, mind and soul and never let me go. I wanna bite, scratch and feed on you.
Yeah, it's true. There is only one thing in the universe that once it's lost can never be found again... and that's time. I don't wanna waste my time, our time, living this senseless life. I will destroy this house, with even my bare hands. I'd like you to help me but i'm not expecting it. I don't care if I'll hurt myself, nothing is worse then living here, alone.
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ThedarkprinceVvvvV
18:34 Dec 15 2013
Very interesting.