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the other night i had the freakiest dream! Oh yeah! I can't remember it well, but we'll see what i can sum up for ya.



It started with me running. i was on a path, like a running path. going so fast, i passed the joggers with ease. i was in a nice suite, maybe a little older than i am now, and something is chasing me. I end up in this building and the doctors grab me, hold me down, I am nocked out and only see bits and pieces of the crazy men above, only their eyes uncovered.



Then i remember ending up in a sailboat with another not far behind. I look up to see my surroundings and the right side of my face begins to cave in, i put my hand to the rubbery skin. I think of giving up until my boyfriend, Josh, opens a door that appears from thin air and pulls me away from the situation and i wake up.





Actually i wake up run out of the bedroom and run into Josh, wrap my arms around him and say, "I had the worst dream! Is my face still there?" lol. and that's when i realized everyone was over smokin in the livingroom.lol

Crazy dream.

If anyone reads this do you think you could interpret it?

Today I was supposed to go back home and go stay the weekend at my boyfriends house. He's 7 years older than me but we have been dating 7 months though, and its getting a little more difficult leaving. Being in a home where my parents still hold control over me. He lives about 40 minutes away so its not like we get to hang out alot. I am trying to wait until we've been together for a year at least. but every time i make plans, they are changed because dad's up my ass, my mom lives even farther and shes begging me stay with her for the summer, or another family thing comes up and i see another week go by without being able to see him. My heart hurts really. Today not being able to see him,, okay pisses me the fuck off. I would be laughing my ass off having a great time right now instead of sitting here waiting for my mom so we can go out to dinner and then do something in the morning. Id rather be going to see Harry potter 7.2 with Josh! I know it's family and i only see them a few times a year, but we don't exactly get along. I don't exactly get along with either my mom or my dad. my mom doesn't like that i smoke and drink, and my bf smokes. Dad doesn't like who I'm dating and that I'm not in a 4 year university yet. and he hates my bf cuz he has a job a person my age could get, and has not too many embisions or anything. but i don't look at that. I look at personality. I fuckin hate school too, I don't exatly like rules either and i will never be with a goody goody, but dad can' t seem to understand those are the type of ppl i have always gravitated to.



but the point is, I miss him like fuckin crazy! I'm just moping around the fucking house waiting to drivve the 4 hours back home to see him.

So!!! I'm a little pissy, its carried over from last night, the 4th of july. I was at my bf's he made me dinner since my bday is tomorrow, he made my favorite. I couldn't enjoy it cuz my dad was drunk and texted me to get my butt home over like a 4 hour time spand. I came home just intime to leave my sister alone to do her quiz and i went to bed. No fun and watching fireworks with my bf and his friend, no getting baked, i had to go home cuz my dad and my sister were up my ass, so now i can remember this as watching the fireworks from the freeway as i drove the 40 minutes home. UGH! There, got it out. I love these journal thingys, i feel better. :)