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Well, I'm sorry to say that I haven't been here on Vampire Rave in quite some time. College, along with some other things, have taken up almost all of my time. I hardly have a chance to come back here, and it saddens me... There are some great people here on VR, and I miss chatting to them deeply. Maybe in the future, or maybe even during the summer, I came come here more often and chat with those that I missed.



College has been so much of a stressor. Recently, I had to drop one of my telecourse classes because taking two of them at the same time is killing me. Too much to read, to watch, and to take notes on. It seems only when I'm in a classroom am I ever dedicated to my work, so from now on I plan on only having classes IN classrooms, not online or watched by television. Maybe that will help me to focus more on my studies... It's always worth a try.



Besides the fact of college, it seems I might have caught the interest of quite a few guys in my home town. Sadly, I don't feel anything for them, and it makes it quite awkward when I am around them. Two I have known since high school, one whom I don't think I will ever like... drugs and alcohol are a big turn off there, and the other... well, he is sweet, but I don't feel a connection beyond friendship with him. Haven't seen him since the ending of last term, but yeah... The other two are from one of my current classes. I don't know about one of them, but the other always talks to me before class begins, and both were very helpful when I stupidly missed the last step on some stairs and crashed to the ground. God, that hurt... Cut my knee an inch long and half an inch wide... and DAMN! My new shoes snapped on me... I'm going to complain to the store about it and get my money back or get a new pair... anyways, I don't know if he likes me or not, but me being who I am, if I find out someone likes me I'm too damn shy and most likely break of the relationship... god I'm weak...



I'm afraid for more than a month now, I have thought of nothing else besides the movie Van Helsing... I just can't help it. It might seem as an obsession to others, but to me it's just who I am. It's a dark movie to me, that holds love, thrill, and several other things that always make stuff like that seem enchanted. Hmm... maybe it's not healthy to like something this much, but I don't care.