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Why is nothing in this life ever easy?

After having millions and millions off

silly tests I have now been told that

I might have Epilepsy.

I always wanted a diagnosis for what is wrong

with me but this I really can't handle.

I know epilepsy well my daughter has

it and my two sisters to.

I'm not scared off living with it but here

in the UK you can't drive unless you been

seizure free for 2 years :(

My two youngest girls are disabled and both

are still in buggies I need to be able to

drive.

Without the car I be completely lost.

The whole family life will have to change.

There is only one other thing that would explain

my symptoms and that's a brain tumour.

I'm waiting for an MRI scan right now and as

bad as this sounds I do hope they find one

as the doctor said it would only be small

and fixible.

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VvvVampireKisses
21:46 Jul 31 2013

Oh dear gawd sis.. I am so sorry.. this is scary..

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LadyBianca
21:51 Jul 31 2013

Only scary thing is not driving I can handle anything else

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SupremeMaster
21:58 Jul 31 2013

I hope everything gets better for you.

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Ok went down to the yard today in a real

bad and unloved mood.

When my friend asked me to have a look at a

horse.

I fell in love with him right away.

I did not pay much for him as the lady just wanted a good home for him.

He looks small on the picture but he is just over 16 hands :)













And here my youngest on her first lesson :)

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SexAndHate
21:31 Jul 29 2013

Some people buy kittens.. LB gets a horse..

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LadyBianca
21:37 Jul 29 2013

He he horses are far more fun :)

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verrewulf
23:31 Jul 29 2013

Awe, he's very pretty. The coloring on his fur is so pretty :3

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I have listened to this song over and over and it's sooo me







When I was a kid the things I did were hidden under the grid

Young and naive I never believed that love could be so well hid

With regret I'm willing to bet and say the older you get

It gets harder to forgive and harder to forget

It gets under your shirt like a dagger at work

The first cut is the deepest but the rest still flipping hurt

You build your heart of plastic

Get cynical and sarcastic

And end up in the corner on your own



Cause I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection

I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection

I thought I was close but under further inspection

It seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh no



So what's the point in getting your hopes up

When all you're ever getting is choked up

When you're coked up

And can't remember the reason why you broke up

You call her in the morning

When you're coming down and falling like an old man on the side of the road

Cause when you're apart you don't want to mingle

When you're together you want to be single

Ever the chase to taste the kiss of bliss

That made your heart tingle

How much greener the grass is

With those rose tinted glasses

But the butterflies they flutter by and leave us on our arses



Cause I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection

I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection

I thought I was close but under further inspection

It seems I've been running in the wrong direction

There's fish in the sea for me to make a selection

I'd jump in if it wasn't for my ear infection

Cause all I want to do is try to make a connection

It seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh



Oh I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection

I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection

I thought I was close but under further inspection

It seems I've been running in the wrong direction

I'd love to feel love but I can't stand the rejection

I hide behind my jokes as a form of protection

I thought I was close but under further inspection

It seems I've been running in the wrong direction ohh

It seems like I'm running in the wrong direction ohh

Seems like I'm running in the wrong direction ohh

Well it seems I've been running in the wrong direction oh no

Seems I've been running in the wrong direction

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SilenceSoothes
21:44 Jul 29 2013

I'm a fan of Passenger as well. He's a talented lyricist and can spin a nice tale.

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LadyBianca
21:45 Jul 29 2013

Yes his lyrics are great love them as all his songs are about real life things

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Ok I'm back :)

I had a amazing two days and it was great

being in Amsterdam again.

Did I do what I went there for?

No something was holding

me back.

But that does not really matter to me.

I do think tho that I need a rest from my two days away lol thankfully the kids

are still at their dads.

I done things and seen people I have not in years.

I feel fucked now in a good and bad way.

I needed this but is my head clear ?Nope.

But he he that's the mind for you things get in easy

but they are hard to clear.

Was nützt es dich zu lieben?

Du wirst ja doch nie mein.

Denn hoffnungslose Liebe

lebt nur von Träumereien.

Ach, hätten meine Augen

die deinen nie gesehen,

dann könnt ich jetzt ganz ruhig

an dir vorüber gehen.

Und hätten deine Hände

die meinen nie berührt,

dann wüsst ich nicht auf

Erden,

wie man wahre Liebe spürt.

Wohin ich auch sehe,

ich sehe nur dein Gesicht,

denn bremsen kann man

Gefühle nicht.

Ich liebe dich.

Everyday is a fight.

Everyday I pretend that I'm strong .

But I'm not .

I lost my strength ,I'm weak.

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VvvVampireKisses
01:14 Jul 20 2013

Sis lean on me.. I got you.. I know allllll to well about breaking on the inside but make it look like Im strong on the outside... faking it.. Its so crazy.. But just know I am hear for you.. I promise

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I have now rated 1000 profiles of the Limbus Patrum coven :)



God only over 3000 to go lol.

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LadyRavenna
20:49 Jul 02 2013

Yes!!!

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