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I lost somebody that was really important to me because I let myself be blinded if I could I would take it all back but we all now thats impossible. If the person I just lost reads this I am truly sorry for pushing u away i didn't mean to if u want call me or text me online. All I can say is I am sorry, and please forgive me.

Why do I lose all of my friends to either moving away or suicide. The unfortunate part is I have lost almost 98% of my friends to suicide. The ones that move away never stay in touch like they say they are going to. It's so hard to keep in touch with people because nobody wants to stay alive they all want to kill themselves or just not talk to anybody that they know cares enough about them to stop them they all chose what seems to be the only decision left.

My new girlfriend makes me as happy as can be. She likes me for who I am. She don't listen to what others have to say about me. I can't explain how happy I am I just now I don't want to lose her if I can help it. If you read this these words come from my heart thats how I was taught how to think was with my heart. I'm just doing my best. Love you always.

Why is everybody so quick to judge people before they get to know them if people would just give others the chance and listened to them with an open mind. Thats the problem I have with making friends because people spread rumors and parents jump to conclusions. The only thing I ask is they at least talk to me face to face for more than a couple of minutes and actually get to know me then I wouldn't blame them if they still decided not to trust me because they at least heard me out.

There is nothing lefdt for me to believe in every time I try to be nice it blows up in my face. It's just everyone wants their life to be like a fucking soap opera. Get a fucking life and grow up. Women ask why chilvary is dead it's because nobody appreciates it when it is used so we figure why the fuck bother. I try everyday but I have it thrown back in my face and if what I'm typing hits a nerve think about why it's hitting a nerve with a calm collective mind you might learn something. I do not mean to be an ass, but I have only been out of the mil;itary for 11 months and I actually want to go back just to hopefully never have to set foot in this country again. Women expect men to be assholes to the point of thats what we become because they don't want to believe that there are still gentlmen in this world to those of you who do believe I am not labeling you. I respect that you are a rare type of person to meet. Oh, and for the men being assholes to women, I should shove a hand grenade up your ass for making it so hard for women to believe in gentlmen anymore your just as much at fault. If you want to know how to treat a woman thinkl about how you would want a daughter of yours to be treated. Maybe that will give you a hint. Until we all learn to get along there will be nothing.

Love means what to the normal man? Does it mean laying down his life for another or does it actually mean nothing anymore. Because every time I care enough for someone to do anything for them they throw it back in my face. This doesn't mean i'll give up on love but it's getting harder and harder to believe in it. I won't give up because I believe that loove can conquer any boundries set against it if both people are willing to go for it. It just seems that nobody wants to believe in love anymore, just lust. I know my name symbolizes an uncaring vampire to some people but I believe a name doesn't rule you and that you can rise above a name if you are willing to put th effort into it. My name does not rule me and I will never let it I make me and thats how it will always be.

I am sick and tired of all the folklore that is incorrect on vampires such as the fact that we can't stand the site of crosses. Bullspit, I have a tattoo of a cross on my arm and yes it's right side up. Garlic don't do shit and the same with silver. Holy water has no effect because supposedly any water could be blessed so I don't see how people could believe that even works. I swim when I feel like it and supposedly the water is supposed to be blessed in my town because they do baptisms in the lake. It's never hurt me. The same with sunlight, it just annoys the piss out of me, not hurts me. I'll admit I would perfer it to be night all the time but thats because my eyes are sensitive to light and I see better in the dark. I have been doing a little bit of discovering on my own and these are the conclusions I have come up with. If you don't like my thoughts thats your opinion and you have every right to it I just had to get my thoughts down before it drove me insane.